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Hello everyone, in lieu of updating my livejournal, I have been avidly playing solitaire... it's an addiction I cannot cure on my own. I want to begin using this again, it helps me to deal with things. Anyway so I'm moving to Switzerland in 169 days. I've been missing Hungary more than anything lately, I know I should feel happy about demenager a Suisse but in all actuality I purely just want to see my family and friends. My parents got divorced, dad has a new girlfriend, Timi turned to Islam. So much has changed and I'm not there to experience it with them. I always had this hopeful attitude about coming back to California, I thought it would get better with tim but in fact it's only worsened. If I could only count the weekends I've spent at home alone. The one time I did go out to try to have fun I get robbed:). I have this irrational fear of going out in San Diego; like if I go to a party I'll get arrested. I keep letting my fears control me and the decisions I make. I'm just so tired of it all, these last eight months have been the lowest of all.
what has everyone else been doing? I feel like a bad lj friend.
what has everyone else been doing? I feel like a bad lj friend.