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IdontknowwhyIhavetogoandgetallthosefeelings
aboutyoucommingrushingbacktome.Butitsallyourfault
becauseyouwentandhadtogoandstarttalking
tomeagainandthenjustsetmeoff.Yourlipsbackonmineand
itwaslikenothinghadeverhappened_beenruined_
betweenus.Thoughyoucanstillgoandputmethroughall
thepainagainandonceagainyouliedtomeandhurt
mealloveragain.IcanterasethememoriesandevenifIcouldI
wouldntjustbecausetheyaresogreat.Theysayifyou
lovesomethingsetitfreeandifitcomesbacktoyouthenit
wastrulyyours...orsomethinglikethatandnowthis
isthesecondtimeyouhavecomebacktome.Ihatetosayit
andIhatemyselfforitbutIknowuncoundtollablyI'llbehere
waitingforyouthethirdtimearoundto.Iwontlet
myselfloveyouItrysohardnottosaythatyourmyfirstloveor
allowyoutoevenknowyouhadthatPRIVELAGE
butIcantcontrolitandIhateit.Youmean
somuchtomeandithurt
mesobadthefirsttimeandallyourlieswiththeir
painthatIknownotonlyinflictedonmebut
onyoutoobecauseIknow
youcantstandtohurtmeandthatswhyyou
runawaysomuch.Uncontrollablyeverytimeyou
runawaythoughI'mright
herewaitingwhenyoudecidetocome
backwhichyoualwaysdecidetodo.Iwishyouwouldjustlistento
thatmessageIleftyouoratleastIhopeyou
alreadydidsomaybeyoucanunderstandwhyIfeelthe
wayIdo.ItsallyourfaultIhadgottenoveryouandanyone
couldsayanythingaboutyouandheranditwouldnteffect
meatallbutthenyouwentandhadtotalktomeand
everythingcamerushingbackandIcouldn'tcontrolit.Whydo
youkeepdoingthistomeYoucan'tstandtohurtme
butyoudoitoverandoverandoveragain?
SomakeachoicebecauseIcan'tstandtokeep
goingthroughallthis...
justpickupthephoneandTELLMETHETRUTHFORONCE.
ItsallIneedtohearbecauseIcan'tstandliving
withoutyou.
Makeupyourmindandwhatyourgoingtodobecausebaby
you can't love both of us at the same time.
Don'tfeelspecialbecuaseIwroteinherehow
IfeelaboutyouitsjustbecauseIhave
neverbeensomadatyoubefore.Icanstandnot
beingyourgirlorwhateverbuthefact
thatwhenevershecomesbackinthepicturetha
tyoucanactlikeyounevereven
knewIwasalivejustkillsme.