Dear God
God, if these feelings are not of you, please take them away. If his feelings are not of you, please take them from him. God how come you make it so hard? Is it really going to be that worth it? I'm hella confused at you right now God. But thanks for that thin thread of assurance that you know what you're doing. Still. This is a lot to bear. Not too much; you promised you wouldn't throw anything at me I can't handle. But God, wow you're really cranking up the intensity, aren't you.
If our feelings are not of you, please take them away. But if they are from you, if this is really part of the beautiful master plan, keep them coming. Rawr.
In your son's precious name, Amen.