Sorry I'm me...
I hate being in this mood. Fuck. I get these "depression spells" every so often and I've never said anything to anyone really before, but I'm sick of trying to cover it up. I've been trying all week to act like me. Actually most of March Break too. But I'm not doin that good of a job. It's even worse that I don't know what exactly has brought this on. Probably just everything that has happened over a couple months that I don't deal with really, but put away. I bet that's all comin back or something. I hate how I'm usually in a good mood too cuz that just makes it hard for me to act like I'm myself. I mean, I complain a lot, but I don't like to complain/talk about this depression thing. I bet I would have some nice pills if my mom wasn't at the doctor's with me all like "She's not depressed! She has nothing to be depressed about! Smarten up!" *sigh + eyeroll*. I was in geography the other day, just sittin there, and all of a sudden I was on the verge of crying. I was all "wtf??" then quickly gathered myself together and waited to go home.
I wish I knew why... I mean, just finished March Break (no school, obvious "yay"), then I hung out with Courtney M onnn Monday? yeah and that was fun. But still. I dunno.
I think I'm done complaining about that. Now that everyone knows bout stuff, I'm sorry if I haven't been my complete self when seeing/talking to you. I'll keep trying to be ok until I'm over this lil' thing.