Tears keep falling on the floor, as the world around her crumbles
Hey Dolls,
God, life is confusing. So I went to school which sucked because of the fact I really didn't want to be there and then we got home and someone called and said they were coming to look at the house so I had to clean the house and they never showed up, so that was pretty fucking retarted. God, I miss my dad, I hope I get to see him for Christmas. I am so fucking tired, its been such a fucking long day. bleh. I hate mondays. I feel so fed up with everything anymore, my patience is wearing thin, and I really want to get past everything that is going on right now, I feel like something is holding me back and I really just want to move on....meh. Fuck these feelings. Ya I decided I am giving up on relationships, because I am never content with them, and I don't think I am made to be able to deal with them. So for now I am content as far as that part of my life goes, so I guess that is good. I dont know why I do this to myself I should realize that everything will work out and even if it doesn't it's not like they are life-threatning things I have to worry about, I am just tired of not exactly knowing what is happening, or whats going to happen. I guess all I can do is hope for the best.
take care sweethearts,
Jordan
God, life is confusing. So I went to school which sucked because of the fact I really didn't want to be there and then we got home and someone called and said they were coming to look at the house so I had to clean the house and they never showed up, so that was pretty fucking retarted. God, I miss my dad, I hope I get to see him for Christmas. I am so fucking tired, its been such a fucking long day. bleh. I hate mondays. I feel so fed up with everything anymore, my patience is wearing thin, and I really want to get past everything that is going on right now, I feel like something is holding me back and I really just want to move on....meh. Fuck these feelings. Ya I decided I am giving up on relationships, because I am never content with them, and I don't think I am made to be able to deal with them. So for now I am content as far as that part of my life goes, so I guess that is good. I dont know why I do this to myself I should realize that everything will work out and even if it doesn't it's not like they are life-threatning things I have to worry about, I am just tired of not exactly knowing what is happening, or whats going to happen. I guess all I can do is hope for the best.
take care sweethearts,
Jordan