nerves
nervous is good right? that means i'm actually doing something, right?
i'm painting my nails the most lurid color i have. a neon yellow. it makes me smile. i don't have a sense of smell. that's why i always do my nails. and i find it really relaxing.
i'm not much of a risk taker. i like to pretend i am. but i'm not. i'll admit it here. no one reads this shit anyway.
kate here has a fear of "no". so she never offers anything. no danger if there is no question. but i'm thinking that maybe
i might have found something worthwhile
and i know it'll seem like nothing to everyone else. but it's kind of a big deal to me. i don't know why. that's a lie. i know partially. but i don't know the whole dealio myself. but i'm lonely. and i'm bored. and this is closing in on a last chance, wrapping up opportunity. it's nerve wracking. god i'm a nerd. i don't know. shit. what's the worst that could happen?
what's the worst that could happen?
i'm painting my nails the most lurid color i have. a neon yellow. it makes me smile. i don't have a sense of smell. that's why i always do my nails. and i find it really relaxing.
i'm not much of a risk taker. i like to pretend i am. but i'm not. i'll admit it here. no one reads this shit anyway.
kate here has a fear of "no". so she never offers anything. no danger if there is no question. but i'm thinking that maybe
i might have found something worthwhile
and i know it'll seem like nothing to everyone else. but it's kind of a big deal to me. i don't know why. that's a lie. i know partially. but i don't know the whole dealio myself. but i'm lonely. and i'm bored. and this is closing in on a last chance, wrapping up opportunity. it's nerve wracking. god i'm a nerd. i don't know. shit. what's the worst that could happen?
what's the worst that could happen?