Jun 08, 2004 22:28
Freedom is more than I could dare to dream of.
But freedom is exactly what I was created to manifest. Freedom is a gift that has been freely given, however, some how it is not so freely accepted.
Due to life's tragedies, devastations, and many tear drenched sleeves, I have built this incredible wall around my heart.
I (for a moment) abandoned hope, faith, and trust.
Trust was no longer an option with these walls that held me inside. Freedom seemed so distant...but it was meant for me in that moment, even NOW, during these times of sorrow, while these storms raged.
Freedom has been given to me to endure these trials.
And Freedom is what I have longed for.
Freedom is to trust, to trust without fear.
Freedom is to live, to live in the moment, holding nothing back, no regrets, no worries, no anxious thoughts.
Freedom will not come to you like an explotion...nothing truly wonderful happens over night...(except for a really nice sleep) Freedom starts to breath life back into your heart...and all of a sudden...you catch your self with your chin held high, a smile on your face...even while sobbing your heart out...you begin to hum a tune...and look to the sky that holds enough beauty to sooth any wound...
Freedom slowly reveals itself, just as the sun awakens the dawn.
Dawn has come...yay!...uhh... time for tea....and a dried apricot.