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"Just when it seems like you've got everything balanced, you find yourself struggling with a friend or someone close in your family. If you can stay cool, everything will blow over."
Staying cool is my biggest issue.
I'm stuck in this never ending cycle of good and bad and I never, ever know when the cycle is going to stop and start again. Everything felt great.. great apparently went down to good without me even noticing. Now great is bad again.
Is this working at all.. or is it just making me sick? You gave me love when you missed me because I wasn't up your ass 24/7 like you're used to. Obviously I should stick to that. "Pretend that you don't care." Why is it so hard?
First of all, I need to get out of the habit of having my phone on me every second. I cannot simply be THAT available all of the time. Actually, I'll sort this game out in my head. You don't need to hear the rules.
I shouldn't even be posting this but I am so infuriated right now. I've been starving all day and my mom brings me a pizza that I totally lost my appetite for.
Fuck my life. I was starting to feel positive and confident again... what happened?
Now do we stay together 'cause we're scared to be alone?
We got so used to this abuse it kind of feels like home
but my baby I just really wanna know
Staying cool is my biggest issue.
I'm stuck in this never ending cycle of good and bad and I never, ever know when the cycle is going to stop and start again. Everything felt great.. great apparently went down to good without me even noticing. Now great is bad again.
Is this working at all.. or is it just making me sick? You gave me love when you missed me because I wasn't up your ass 24/7 like you're used to. Obviously I should stick to that. "Pretend that you don't care." Why is it so hard?
First of all, I need to get out of the habit of having my phone on me every second. I cannot simply be THAT available all of the time. Actually, I'll sort this game out in my head. You don't need to hear the rules.
I shouldn't even be posting this but I am so infuriated right now. I've been starving all day and my mom brings me a pizza that I totally lost my appetite for.
Fuck my life. I was starting to feel positive and confident again... what happened?
Now do we stay together 'cause we're scared to be alone?
We got so used to this abuse it kind of feels like home
but my baby I just really wanna know