more laundry listing
i'm sorry if these are annoying to read, but they are the best way for me to organize my thoughts.. even though they are incredibly unorganized in essence..
+field trip tomorrow for euro, always pumped for a good old art gallery time!
-cache is intimidating. and as anna has said, i feel inferior at times even though i shouldn't, wish i felt a bit more comfortable
+i got to talk with anna tonight, nothing of life altering depth, but it is so nice to just sit and talk.
-i wish more of my friends liked to just sit and talk.. whether about something or nothing, whatever they want
-i miss some of the people i use to be really close with, and I don't think they are quite aware of it, or are aware and don't seem to care.
- i expect people to want to hang out with me all the time and always want to talk to me, when that is far, far, FAR from the case. i'm super self absorbed in that sense.
-i am made fun of a lot, usually joking, but it is a smidge tiresome. i dunno i guess i shouldn't really complain, they really don't mean the things they say, it is just a bit much sometimes. i dunno, i'm overly sensitive, and i'm just thinking out loud here.
++ i love how close i have come to a few people.
- i don't do euro, ever. and it shows.
-ACT didn't really go very well, but you know what, it's one test in my life. after i get into my schools.. will they care what I go? no.
+and, i'm taking it again already, so whatever if it comes back a 7, swell. it will look better when i get a good score next time haha
+i think I am going to run for choir president for next year.
+the more i look at my schedule for next year, the less bitter I become. i'm hoping i'm so busy that i don't even notice the things that i am mad about now.
-i am really bad at chemistry.
+weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
+i have found more amazing music. and i have been piano-ing it up more. i'm excited for that. what a nerd i am
-i miss church, i wish i liked my youth group more. I don't feel very close to them, and those who i do know don't really seem to include me, making me kind of not want to go more.
+i am trying to put more positive things on here.. um.. the weather is fantastic!!
+i am going to umpire this summer! haha i don't know if i mentioned that in the last post. oh well.
+ i got my dress fixed thanks to the ingenius minds at the ohly household haha, thanks ladiess
+muse is coming soon! nobody likes the muse, except me haha. nobody buys them except my friends who feel bad. they are good to me.
oh, and here are some pictures.. haha hey were inspired by my camera accidently taking a picture of me...
i promise these aren't "look at me, im hott"... they just made me laugh because they are so lame and so myspacey haha
so it all started with me having my camera sitting on my bed, it was on because i had just looked at the pictures that were on the card. And while i was laying there, just thinking, my books that were stacked by the camera began to topple over and hit the camera, causing it to take a picture.. this..
i was like hm.. that looks so myscpaey with the half face, staring into the distance.. so i was thinking well.. i wanna explore all of the random myspace ideas!
there is the "from above shot"
the "high contrast madness" picture (wouldn't it be crazy if my hair were this red?)
and this one is a combination of three myspace cliches! the peace sign/mouth open/ mirror shot
more mirror fun.. but this one has that extra sparkle that is.. the pouty lips peace sign combo... i over did it a bit to add dramatic, teenage angst like emotions. haha
i can't even count how many times i've seen this like.. exact shot haha
haha i'm so lame.
and i don't mean to offend anyone. we have all taken these types of pictures before and we have all thought "wow, i'm hott". ABSOLUTELY including myself haha, so don't take this in a mean or direct-hit kind of way, i am just merely noticing and admiring a current teen craze.
um, goodnight everybody!
love, mare