A Proposition
Alright, duckies, I have a rather splendid little scheme set out for myself.
I will GET A GRIP. And keep it simple. If he answers and/or insta-messages me, I’ll extend the reconciliation period for an undetermined amount of time. However, if he fails to produce his share and live up to his end of the bargain, I’ll dump him on the spot, capice? Clean breaks. No going soft. I've reached a certain crossroad in my life; i have no time for wishy-washy indecisiveness.
Time is your most valuable resource. Before I know it, my heart will be pounding in my head as I stare blankly at the MCAT, struggling to recall the specifics of upper division organic chemistry.
My ambition is twenty times more important than some so-called relationship that me and what's-his-face have the “potential” of ending up in. Look, he’s approaching it about as fast as a drugged and incapacitated three toed sloth would, and I just don’t have time for pointless, immature games. I’ve given him a long enough period to get comfortable , he needs to drag himself out of the shallow end and start venturing out into deeper, darker waters. It’s been long enough, and I'm not going to watch the hours fly by while I day dream about what could.
Remember the start of this epic chronicle?
No regrets, no grudges, and most importantly, no wanderings. NO what ifs. I do what I do and if it doesn't work out than blast it all, I'll figure a new approach if it's really worth it, but I WILL NOT DILLY DALLY AND ATTATCH MYSELF TO USELESS AND WHIMSICAL EMOTIONS. That is, quite possibly, the most colossal waste of time possible.
I'm not angry or bitter, because if worse comes to worse and he continues to stall and hedge the current issue, hiding from it under his bed like the macho man he is, I'll still be able to say I learned some of the most valuable lessons of my life whilst dealing with him, ones that can't be taught by textbook , teacher, or private tutor you need to pay an arm and a leg for.
So come what may, i am TOTALLY (hopefully.... please???) prepared. I'm not in the mood to mope if he chooses otherwise. For once in my life, I'll go with the flow instead of relentlessly fighting the current, and see where I end up..........