odd feeling
have u ever gotten all flustered up? i mean like where it feels like all the blood rushes to ur face, feels like its hotter than a mother trucker and its a perfectly good temperature out...everything kind of cringes up on the inside and it feels like ur intestines are being tied off...i get that every time i talk to liz or hear about liz, especially since she is probably trying to seek a new boyfriend and everything, i have a myspace account SHAWNS MYSPACE and shes a friend on there so its odd, i put in there somewhere that she hated me and she stated that she always has and always will love me...WELL THEN WHY THE HELL DID U BREAK MY DAMN HEART!!!...god! idiot!...i've seen that movie too many times for my own good...im the person who thinks that breaking up with someone and then going back out with them is a stupid thing, there was evidently something wrong in the first place so what makes u think its gonna change? god!...but at the same time i contradict myself in that i would take Liz back in a heartbeat...i love her more than anything and i miss her so damn much...i dont really see why theres a purpose for me here, now that Liz is gone i have nothing really in my life worth substance, i mean i have friends...that i rarely see anymore...Liz was my world and she went and took it away so what am i without a world to live with? an empty void that cant stop thinking about those grassy knolls that once existed on the world of love that we had created? im dead to the world.......im glad she's moving on and im happy that shes happy but it hurts sooo damn much, yea i could try and get back into the swing of single life again but thats just too damn hard, its been 3 damn year THREE YEARS! since i was last single, i have no idea what im doin anymore, used to have girls that liked me a lot when liz was around, but now that shes not they dont give me the time of day....i think that that aspect of the female thinking process is quiet funny, they like a guy when he's not available because they "can't have him" and that makes him more intriguing but the second he's single they dont want anything to do with ya....so yea, im done for now