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I haven't posted much -- not out of laziness but rather avoidance and being busy. Actually, more busy than avoidance.
I fell off the wagon in term of binge-eating. I did curb it for several months and it was pretty awesome. Clearer skin, more energy and being altogether a happier person. However, lately, I've been stressed but I used work as an excuse which is ridiculous. I shouldn't let work get to me even though I absolutely love my job, I have trouble sleeping and frequently worry about other people's ability to do their work. Why would I care? First impression is very important to me when it comes to my workplace. It bothers me when people do a half-arsed job in their working environment. But I digress. That's one side.
Family and friends are also the issue. I get stressed whenever I see family members. Not that I don't love them, which I do -- I just don't like some of them. Some of them are terrible people but when you're stuck with them due to being obligated, it eats you up.
The friend who wanted to cut ties with me informed me that she is concerned about my well-being since I'm not very forgiving of people's flaws. She also indicated that because I am very aloof and that I'd rather be alone than hang out with people in general is an issue. She says I'm very 'sad' and it bothers her. It's sad because I prefer my own company vs. other people's company? It's sad that I'd rather see a movie alone than with a friend?
Why is being comfortable with being alone and doing my own thing a representation of a sad person?
When is it ever okay to be a recluse?
However, I will have to admit that she is right when she says I'm sad but not because I like to be alone. I am sad because I'd rather be alone than to hang out with flawed and yet very lovely people. I'm sad that I'm okay with that.
Doesn't make sense, does it? Yeah, I don't get it either.
I fell off the wagon in term of binge-eating. I did curb it for several months and it was pretty awesome. Clearer skin, more energy and being altogether a happier person. However, lately, I've been stressed but I used work as an excuse which is ridiculous. I shouldn't let work get to me even though I absolutely love my job, I have trouble sleeping and frequently worry about other people's ability to do their work. Why would I care? First impression is very important to me when it comes to my workplace. It bothers me when people do a half-arsed job in their working environment. But I digress. That's one side.
Family and friends are also the issue. I get stressed whenever I see family members. Not that I don't love them, which I do -- I just don't like some of them. Some of them are terrible people but when you're stuck with them due to being obligated, it eats you up.
The friend who wanted to cut ties with me informed me that she is concerned about my well-being since I'm not very forgiving of people's flaws. She also indicated that because I am very aloof and that I'd rather be alone than hang out with people in general is an issue. She says I'm very 'sad' and it bothers her. It's sad because I prefer my own company vs. other people's company? It's sad that I'd rather see a movie alone than with a friend?
Why is being comfortable with being alone and doing my own thing a representation of a sad person?
When is it ever okay to be a recluse?
However, I will have to admit that she is right when she says I'm sad but not because I like to be alone. I am sad because I'd rather be alone than to hang out with flawed and yet very lovely people. I'm sad that I'm okay with that.
Doesn't make sense, does it? Yeah, I don't get it either.