just ego tripping
the plan: july haley and i will have a kick ass place in denton. i'll have already found us a nice apt. and we will both be registered and ready for our second fall semester.
at present: it's four thirty AM. i wish some one would break in and kill me right now. bust open the door and shoot me. i start spring break (from school and work) in 8 hours. i am dedicating the whole week to a government paper. i don't even know the grade i receieved on the test but i know i am more than satisfied, so i've been motivated to kick severe ass on the rest of the semester. my voice cracks when i'm nervous, and when talking about animal cruelty, my speech teacher probably thought i was on the verge of tears, when really i was just scared. haha attack the emotions.
lately i've noticed a change in me. i've been bitter before, but where has all this hostility come from? it's never been this harsh, even haley said that i was never the jelous type. what the hell opened my eyes to such a shitty world. i wish i could block it out of my mind and go back to being a normal person. everything just sucks. it fuckin sucks. what a brilliant way to end a stupid live journal post. if only you guys really knew what was up, you'd see just how pathetic i've become.
at present: it's four thirty AM. i wish some one would break in and kill me right now. bust open the door and shoot me. i start spring break (from school and work) in 8 hours. i am dedicating the whole week to a government paper. i don't even know the grade i receieved on the test but i know i am more than satisfied, so i've been motivated to kick severe ass on the rest of the semester. my voice cracks when i'm nervous, and when talking about animal cruelty, my speech teacher probably thought i was on the verge of tears, when really i was just scared. haha attack the emotions.
lately i've noticed a change in me. i've been bitter before, but where has all this hostility come from? it's never been this harsh, even haley said that i was never the jelous type. what the hell opened my eyes to such a shitty world. i wish i could block it out of my mind and go back to being a normal person. everything just sucks. it fuckin sucks. what a brilliant way to end a stupid live journal post. if only you guys really knew what was up, you'd see just how pathetic i've become.