He's one of those boys you'd do anything for.
Dear Diary-♥
The past few days have not been so great but at the same time they've been the best. I know that sounds kind of weird considering me and william got into yet another crazy argument last night and continue to have these disagreements, but the past 2 arguments we've had, have made me realize a lot of things that I honestly feel like I didn't want to maybe realize before. It's kinda scary when you fall "head over heels" as everyone calls it for a guy when your only 16 years old. Your thoughts, feelings, and emotions all sort of form together into this big jumbled up mess and it just messes you up completely to the point where you don't know what to do. It's frustrating and annoying and it sucks but at the same time its great because of the result out of it all. I can honestly say that no matter how bad the argument is or how many tears fall from my eyes or how much I can't stand William for that little while.. after it's all said and done with i'm even more in love with him then ever before. It's weird I know.. but it's true. I can't put into words how much I love him. He's changed me a lot and made me see things differently then I ever did before. But well.. back to the other stuff..
for william, but if you others care to read it and make comments on it then feel free to.=]
I know last night I said a lot of things about how I don't fully trust you and you really haven't given me a reason to trust you and all that stuff... well I DONT/DIDNT MEAN IT. The truth is.. I trust you more then I have ever trusted anyone else and you do have my complete trust. In a way.. you haven't really gave me a reason to trust you but in a way you have. You've proved me wrong about you and thats a good thing. I just gotta accept it now. haha!! The only reason why I get mad when you go to water-droplets is out of fear. It's not about trusting you.. I just don't want to lose you. You get what I mean nookums ??
I'm sure all you others are annoyed with reading about me and william and our drama so i'll throw in some other lame stuff just for ya'll.
-Schools been pretty good. It's tiring but I guess I can't complain about it to much. It's actually going by kind of fast. That's good though. I wish we would switch classes but o wells. It will be here before I know it. I have a test in 1st period on Tuesday. For the most part I understand the stuff we're going over right now but I don't do so well on tests so i'm a tad bit scared. lol We had a test in 2nd period today.. I feel like I did good on it. In 3rd period we've had a substitute all week cause my teachers getting surgery on her knee and some of the students in the class have been "teaching" the stuff.. and they don't know it no better then the rest of us do so i'm not gonna do so good on the test Tuesday most likely. And well.. then of course in spanish i'm doing good like always! haha! I joined the Spanish Club today.. now all I gotta do is pay the $10 dues. I'm the "christmas cheer chairmen" person for the club. I get to gather the money and wrap the presents for the families that we support. I'm excited about it. I like christmas. I'm probably going to do more in the Spanish Club then HOSA. I don't really like the way HOSA is. It's led by students and well.. they're stuck up. haha! I'd rather talk about sonbrero's and mexicanos and all that crazy stuff then sit around listening to stuck up cunt bag bitches thinking they know every damn thing. wow. such harshness. dont you just love it. I know I do =]] yahhh.
ok well thats it's for now folks. I got Teri IMing me and i'm slacking on replying back haha! =]]
leave me comments.
Beth<3
sidenote:William, I love you xinfinity +10,000 and i'm glad we didn't break up last night. It really scared me when you said "idk" to that question and it made me feel a little awkward but i'm really glad we worked it out and stayed together. I think we're meant to be and if we aren't.. well.. we are sure as hell gonna find a way to make it work! hehe! I love you nookumsface and i'm gonna try my hardest to cut out some of the arguing so you try to and maybe/hopefully it will go away. =]] <3
"I found the one I can be myself around, I can say whatever I want, I can laugh, I can smile, I can fight and make up and then at the [very end of the night], we'll still be crazy about each other."
The past few days have not been so great but at the same time they've been the best. I know that sounds kind of weird considering me and william got into yet another crazy argument last night and continue to have these disagreements, but the past 2 arguments we've had, have made me realize a lot of things that I honestly feel like I didn't want to maybe realize before. It's kinda scary when you fall "head over heels" as everyone calls it for a guy when your only 16 years old. Your thoughts, feelings, and emotions all sort of form together into this big jumbled up mess and it just messes you up completely to the point where you don't know what to do. It's frustrating and annoying and it sucks but at the same time its great because of the result out of it all. I can honestly say that no matter how bad the argument is or how many tears fall from my eyes or how much I can't stand William for that little while.. after it's all said and done with i'm even more in love with him then ever before. It's weird I know.. but it's true. I can't put into words how much I love him. He's changed me a lot and made me see things differently then I ever did before. But well.. back to the other stuff..
for william, but if you others care to read it and make comments on it then feel free to.=]
I know last night I said a lot of things about how I don't fully trust you and you really haven't given me a reason to trust you and all that stuff... well I DONT/DIDNT MEAN IT. The truth is.. I trust you more then I have ever trusted anyone else and you do have my complete trust. In a way.. you haven't really gave me a reason to trust you but in a way you have. You've proved me wrong about you and thats a good thing. I just gotta accept it now. haha!! The only reason why I get mad when you go to water-droplets is out of fear. It's not about trusting you.. I just don't want to lose you. You get what I mean nookums ??
I'm sure all you others are annoyed with reading about me and william and our drama so i'll throw in some other lame stuff just for ya'll.
-Schools been pretty good. It's tiring but I guess I can't complain about it to much. It's actually going by kind of fast. That's good though. I wish we would switch classes but o wells. It will be here before I know it. I have a test in 1st period on Tuesday. For the most part I understand the stuff we're going over right now but I don't do so well on tests so i'm a tad bit scared. lol We had a test in 2nd period today.. I feel like I did good on it. In 3rd period we've had a substitute all week cause my teachers getting surgery on her knee and some of the students in the class have been "teaching" the stuff.. and they don't know it no better then the rest of us do so i'm not gonna do so good on the test Tuesday most likely. And well.. then of course in spanish i'm doing good like always! haha! I joined the Spanish Club today.. now all I gotta do is pay the $10 dues. I'm the "christmas cheer chairmen" person for the club. I get to gather the money and wrap the presents for the families that we support. I'm excited about it. I like christmas. I'm probably going to do more in the Spanish Club then HOSA. I don't really like the way HOSA is. It's led by students and well.. they're stuck up. haha! I'd rather talk about sonbrero's and mexicanos and all that crazy stuff then sit around listening to stuck up cunt bag bitches thinking they know every damn thing. wow. such harshness. dont you just love it. I know I do =]] yahhh.
ok well thats it's for now folks. I got Teri IMing me and i'm slacking on replying back haha! =]]
leave me comments.
Beth<3
sidenote:William, I love you xinfinity +10,000 and i'm glad we didn't break up last night. It really scared me when you said "idk" to that question and it made me feel a little awkward but i'm really glad we worked it out and stayed together. I think we're meant to be and if we aren't.. well.. we are sure as hell gonna find a way to make it work! hehe! I love you nookumsface and i'm gonna try my hardest to cut out some of the arguing so you try to and maybe/hopefully it will go away. =]] <3
"I found the one I can be myself around, I can say whatever I want, I can laugh, I can smile, I can fight and make up and then at the [very end of the night], we'll still be crazy about each other."