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Dear Journal♥,
Today was an ok day.
Tad bit better then yesterday..
but still not what it should be.
I know that things are not ok.
I continue to get that feeling.
There was plenty of times today when I just wanted to stand or sit there and cry today but I wasn't able to.
I still have yet to figure out whats wrong.
Maybe I will soon enough.
but onto other things.. I don't feel like whining.
I had a test in Pre-Calculus yesterday. I got an 81 on it.
I suck at life. I'm probably gonna fail. poo.
In 2nd period I had a test yesterday as well. I thought I failed it. The questions confused me a lot.. but I did ok on it I reckon. 85.. not so bad. Could be better though.
3rd period I had a test yesterday. Got a 93 on it. It's the only one I can say i'm proud of and i'm not really proud of it. I know I can do better.. I just don't apply myself anymore. I feel no need to I reckon. Stupid I know.. I guess it's part of this whole "sadness" i'm going through.
4th period still sucks. I hate spanish. but o wells. I'm actually starting to learn the stuff. It's all way to hard but I guess it will come to me.
well after school today I hung out with Amber all day. We called around to different places about jobs. I need a job so bad. I want my own money. If anyone knows of a place hiring then let me know please. =]] lol
I don't know whats really going on with me and [william]. It's all starting to worry me. I want us to be ok and to work but idk whats going to happen. Just when I feel ok about it all again something weird happens and I start to wonder about him. Maybe it's just me. I sure hope so. I just want me and him to be happy. I don't know what i'm gonna do if I lose him. =[ sadness. poo.
hmm. so nothing more to really talk about.
leave me some comments pwease.
beth<3
sidenote: I LOVE my William. :]
Today was an ok day.
Tad bit better then yesterday..
but still not what it should be.
I know that things are not ok.
I continue to get that feeling.
There was plenty of times today when I just wanted to stand or sit there and cry today but I wasn't able to.
I still have yet to figure out whats wrong.
Maybe I will soon enough.
but onto other things.. I don't feel like whining.
I had a test in Pre-Calculus yesterday. I got an 81 on it.
I suck at life. I'm probably gonna fail. poo.
In 2nd period I had a test yesterday as well. I thought I failed it. The questions confused me a lot.. but I did ok on it I reckon. 85.. not so bad. Could be better though.
3rd period I had a test yesterday. Got a 93 on it. It's the only one I can say i'm proud of and i'm not really proud of it. I know I can do better.. I just don't apply myself anymore. I feel no need to I reckon. Stupid I know.. I guess it's part of this whole "sadness" i'm going through.
4th period still sucks. I hate spanish. but o wells. I'm actually starting to learn the stuff. It's all way to hard but I guess it will come to me.
well after school today I hung out with Amber all day. We called around to different places about jobs. I need a job so bad. I want my own money. If anyone knows of a place hiring then let me know please. =]] lol
I don't know whats really going on with me and [william]. It's all starting to worry me. I want us to be ok and to work but idk whats going to happen. Just when I feel ok about it all again something weird happens and I start to wonder about him. Maybe it's just me. I sure hope so. I just want me and him to be happy. I don't know what i'm gonna do if I lose him. =[ sadness. poo.
hmm. so nothing more to really talk about.
leave me some comments pwease.
beth<3
sidenote: I LOVE my William. :]