don't bother reading this. it's long, boring, and negligible.
hi panic attacks. so nice to see you again. welcome back.
i'm being paranoid. and sad for no reason. and i can't help but worry. everyone runs away.
oh. when i'm panicky and sad i buy shoes.
ask me how many pairs of shoes i bought today.
you: how many pairs of shoes did you buy today?
me: 4. four. F O U R.
3 of them were only $4 though. does that make it a little better?
i went to haverstraw and got those cute little maryjanes that i've seen everyone wearing. 3 pairs. pink, maroon, and black. and i got new puma anjans in teal and pink even though i already have them in blue and red. they're distracting my sadness for now though. and i bought the movies "3 Ninjas" and "The Curve" on dvd. they were on sale for 6 bucks. no more spending money for a while though. i swear.
oh i think i broke a couple toes this morning. and they're all scraped too. i tripped over a box. they hurt. kiss them.
i got to see chuk and eliot today. i miss those guys. even though eliot hates me. i also enjoy feeling short, and they both tower over me.
tonight is girl time with my beeeeee effff efffffff cause i love her and we haven't had girl time in too long. i'm sure that will make me feel a little better for a little while. this is probably just a little ditch. i can get out of it. especially if i'm wrong about what i'm being sad about.
my orientation for loyola is monday. i'm leaving sunday night cause it starts early monday morning. i get to stay in the sheraton in baltimore on sunday night. i loooooooove that hotel for some reason. and the beds are orgasmic. then monday i do all sorts of stuff, and monday night i sleep in the dorms! with other kids! ::nervous:: ::but also excited:: i had a dream about it 2 nights ago. in like 3 of the room it was all rockland kids. only a few of them were real rockland kids but in my dream i knew them all. i love going away. even just for 2 days. and i love baltimore. and i love loyola even though i'm really scared to meet all these people. i doubt i will find a friend to room with. but maybe. ::crosses fingers::
i have the new new found glory song stuck in my heaaaaad.
i smell. time to bathe.
i'm being paranoid. and sad for no reason. and i can't help but worry. everyone runs away.
oh. when i'm panicky and sad i buy shoes.
ask me how many pairs of shoes i bought today.
you: how many pairs of shoes did you buy today?
me: 4. four. F O U R.
3 of them were only $4 though. does that make it a little better?
i went to haverstraw and got those cute little maryjanes that i've seen everyone wearing. 3 pairs. pink, maroon, and black. and i got new puma anjans in teal and pink even though i already have them in blue and red. they're distracting my sadness for now though. and i bought the movies "3 Ninjas" and "The Curve" on dvd. they were on sale for 6 bucks. no more spending money for a while though. i swear.
oh i think i broke a couple toes this morning. and they're all scraped too. i tripped over a box. they hurt. kiss them.
i got to see chuk and eliot today. i miss those guys. even though eliot hates me. i also enjoy feeling short, and they both tower over me.
tonight is girl time with my beeeeee effff efffffff cause i love her and we haven't had girl time in too long. i'm sure that will make me feel a little better for a little while. this is probably just a little ditch. i can get out of it. especially if i'm wrong about what i'm being sad about.
my orientation for loyola is monday. i'm leaving sunday night cause it starts early monday morning. i get to stay in the sheraton in baltimore on sunday night. i loooooooove that hotel for some reason. and the beds are orgasmic. then monday i do all sorts of stuff, and monday night i sleep in the dorms! with other kids! ::nervous:: ::but also excited:: i had a dream about it 2 nights ago. in like 3 of the room it was all rockland kids. only a few of them were real rockland kids but in my dream i knew them all. i love going away. even just for 2 days. and i love baltimore. and i love loyola even though i'm really scared to meet all these people. i doubt i will find a friend to room with. but maybe. ::crosses fingers::
i have the new new found glory song stuck in my heaaaaad.
i smell. time to bathe.