she's perfect for you. there's got to be somebody for me.
today:
1.shopped. bought way too many things.
2.worked. did really awesomely (i think?). sold lots of things. saw a cute boy but i'm the shyest sometimes. i did talk to him a little though.
3.came home to a house full of boys playing poker and screaming at the tv.
4.parents came home drunk as skunks as per usual. screamed and cursed at me a lot for no reason. i <3 alcoholics.
5.dave and i fought kind of. i think we still are. i dunno what to do about him.
6.lee called. made me cry but it wasn't really his fault. just my emotions that explode sometimes. i dunno what to do about him. either.
7.stopped crying and took pictures.
no makeup and post-crying eyes. high heels shirt!
put eyeliner on. better? ok. i love this shirt the most. it makes me look like i have boobs. and it's just cuteeee.
i'm a dorkmonster. but that's me swimming in the shirt. ha. cause it's way too big. i wanna make it smaller or make it into a halter top or something. or maybe not. i dunno.
there was a tiny fly by my hand and i made this weird face by accident.
close up.
yeah. i dunno.
it's true. i am.
my RED. the love of my life. i bought her today to cheer myself up. <3
my eyebrows have minds of their own now. i'm getting them done tomorrow. i SWEAR.
blurry? yeah.
toilets are sexy. so are new hoodies.
i was told tonight that my complete lack of self esteem is one of my worst qualities, or something along those lines. as if i didn't know this? i'm trying. i'm getting better. it was also funny coming from someone who is not particularly nice to me. as if that is going to make me feel good about myself? it didn't really make sense. but i am getting better.
i've discovered two things about myself and my outlook over the past few days/weeks, but my eyes won't stay open anymore. time to go snuggle up with red.
believe in me. help me believe in anything. cause i wanna be someone who believes.
1.shopped. bought way too many things.
2.worked. did really awesomely (i think?). sold lots of things. saw a cute boy but i'm the shyest sometimes. i did talk to him a little though.
3.came home to a house full of boys playing poker and screaming at the tv.
4.parents came home drunk as skunks as per usual. screamed and cursed at me a lot for no reason. i <3 alcoholics.
5.dave and i fought kind of. i think we still are. i dunno what to do about him.
6.lee called. made me cry but it wasn't really his fault. just my emotions that explode sometimes. i dunno what to do about him. either.
7.stopped crying and took pictures.
no makeup and post-crying eyes. high heels shirt!
put eyeliner on. better? ok. i love this shirt the most. it makes me look like i have boobs. and it's just cuteeee.
i'm a dorkmonster. but that's me swimming in the shirt. ha. cause it's way too big. i wanna make it smaller or make it into a halter top or something. or maybe not. i dunno.
there was a tiny fly by my hand and i made this weird face by accident.
close up.
yeah. i dunno.
it's true. i am.
my RED. the love of my life. i bought her today to cheer myself up. <3
my eyebrows have minds of their own now. i'm getting them done tomorrow. i SWEAR.
blurry? yeah.
toilets are sexy. so are new hoodies.
i was told tonight that my complete lack of self esteem is one of my worst qualities, or something along those lines. as if i didn't know this? i'm trying. i'm getting better. it was also funny coming from someone who is not particularly nice to me. as if that is going to make me feel good about myself? it didn't really make sense. but i am getting better.
i've discovered two things about myself and my outlook over the past few days/weeks, but my eyes won't stay open anymore. time to go snuggle up with red.
believe in me. help me believe in anything. cause i wanna be someone who believes.