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I guess I'll only use this space when I randomly feel like it. Maybe things I say here, I don't want alot of people to know, not that I mind actually. But I just don't feel like it.
I wouldn't want to sound desperate. But really, at 18, to be still a 'virgin' in matters of bgr, it seems kind of sad. I dont want to get involved in a relationship for the sake of being in one but I want to know the feeling of having someone by your side, someone to love, to hold and to get you through the night. For all this time, I was always afraid to ask, afraid to commit and afraid to even pursue the love of another. And yet now I'm lamenting. I guess it's all my fault. I lack the confidence and self-belief and no amount of encouragement from friends and even the burning desire can help me through it. I really ought to be called a wimp.
Everytime I embark on a new journey, I'll tell myself, maybe it's time. And yet, nothing's happen.
I've been told that you need to work to get what you want, to get 'good things'. Yet I choose to wait.
I still want to wait.
I wouldn't want to sound desperate. But really, at 18, to be still a 'virgin' in matters of bgr, it seems kind of sad. I dont want to get involved in a relationship for the sake of being in one but I want to know the feeling of having someone by your side, someone to love, to hold and to get you through the night. For all this time, I was always afraid to ask, afraid to commit and afraid to even pursue the love of another. And yet now I'm lamenting. I guess it's all my fault. I lack the confidence and self-belief and no amount of encouragement from friends and even the burning desire can help me through it. I really ought to be called a wimp.
Everytime I embark on a new journey, I'll tell myself, maybe it's time. And yet, nothing's happen.
I've been told that you need to work to get what you want, to get 'good things'. Yet I choose to wait.
I still want to wait.