We're concentrating on falling apart.
"And you know doc, it's not like I'm gonna make a habit of doing it."
"Doing what nick?"
"I just needed a fix! Thats all! I'll never touch it again, I swear."
"You're not making any sense Nick. Just start from the beginning."
"I was sitting there right, at my computer, and I'm waiting for the server transfer to finish up, but that could take like 12 more hours before the domain redirect is working right again, and, and I start to get the shakes doc. And so I'm looking at all my friends right, and they're all having fun, just posting away, and I'm thinking doc, 'why not just give in? why not just post once?' And so I gave in doc, I did it and its not something I'm proud of, but let me tell you something... I kinda liked it."
"Well, I don't think I see what the problem is, if--"
"Of course you don't! I'm not one of them yet. Give it time. I'll be slitting my wrists and starting fights with everyone, just you wait. I'll be the emo-est fucker in the whole place. I can feel it start to take hold of me. I suddenly want to cry and get upset because nobody cares about me. You don't even care. You didn't ask me how my day was when I walked in today. I'm just money to you. Money and ass."
"Uh.. Jesus Nick, I'm sorry. How was your--"
"GOOD! REAL FUCKIN' GOOD! YOU HAPPY NOW BITCH?!"
"Doing what nick?"
"I just needed a fix! Thats all! I'll never touch it again, I swear."
"You're not making any sense Nick. Just start from the beginning."
"I was sitting there right, at my computer, and I'm waiting for the server transfer to finish up, but that could take like 12 more hours before the domain redirect is working right again, and, and I start to get the shakes doc. And so I'm looking at all my friends right, and they're all having fun, just posting away, and I'm thinking doc, 'why not just give in? why not just post once?' And so I gave in doc, I did it and its not something I'm proud of, but let me tell you something... I kinda liked it."
"Well, I don't think I see what the problem is, if--"
"Of course you don't! I'm not one of them yet. Give it time. I'll be slitting my wrists and starting fights with everyone, just you wait. I'll be the emo-est fucker in the whole place. I can feel it start to take hold of me. I suddenly want to cry and get upset because nobody cares about me. You don't even care. You didn't ask me how my day was when I walked in today. I'm just money to you. Money and ass."
"Uh.. Jesus Nick, I'm sorry. How was your--"
"GOOD! REAL FUCKIN' GOOD! YOU HAPPY NOW BITCH?!"