back in the land of roses
hello again. hello. do you like my hat?
anyway, the weekend was interesting. a beach vacation with my family and my mother's boyfriend and his son. rather odd group. there would have been so many people I would have rather spent that time with- but whatever, family is family and I'm sure someday my mother will be thankful that i was there. it was cloudy and windy and cold which I guess was sort of a relief from the 90 degree weather we have been having in Portland, but I sort of had wanted a tan
so now I'm home. which is once again fine. I'm surprised by how comfortable I am here after only a few weeks. yeah, it's not bad. a little lonely maybe but calm and that is what counts for the summer. and oh how i love the summer. I went to jake's dad's wedding reception today, which was a little weird because Jacob wasn't there when i got there (he was driving someone to the train station) and I just stood around feeling really stupid for about twenty minutes. at least i think his dad likes me (and went to brandeis) so he sort of enjoied chatting about that. whatever, jake is as he always is and insisted that I come visit him. I think I might seeing as how all his friends seem really cool these days. [for those of you who don't know Jake was my first real boyfriend and my first stalker ex-boyfriend. sort of. I mean he's really nice, just really clingy, and he smells like a hippie.]
well I'm ready for the summer to get going. I need to go camping or hiking or just go sit outside and drink a glass of wine. yes. maybe that is what i will do.
ps. is it bad to have so many doubts? to have them piled up on your front porch like newspapers or smelling like a wet dog by your feet? I don't like mine.
anyway, the weekend was interesting. a beach vacation with my family and my mother's boyfriend and his son. rather odd group. there would have been so many people I would have rather spent that time with- but whatever, family is family and I'm sure someday my mother will be thankful that i was there. it was cloudy and windy and cold which I guess was sort of a relief from the 90 degree weather we have been having in Portland, but I sort of had wanted a tan
so now I'm home. which is once again fine. I'm surprised by how comfortable I am here after only a few weeks. yeah, it's not bad. a little lonely maybe but calm and that is what counts for the summer. and oh how i love the summer. I went to jake's dad's wedding reception today, which was a little weird because Jacob wasn't there when i got there (he was driving someone to the train station) and I just stood around feeling really stupid for about twenty minutes. at least i think his dad likes me (and went to brandeis) so he sort of enjoied chatting about that. whatever, jake is as he always is and insisted that I come visit him. I think I might seeing as how all his friends seem really cool these days. [for those of you who don't know Jake was my first real boyfriend and my first stalker ex-boyfriend. sort of. I mean he's really nice, just really clingy, and he smells like a hippie.]
well I'm ready for the summer to get going. I need to go camping or hiking or just go sit outside and drink a glass of wine. yes. maybe that is what i will do.
ps. is it bad to have so many doubts? to have them piled up on your front porch like newspapers or smelling like a wet dog by your feet? I don't like mine.