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ever get that selfish jealous feeling that you know is selfish and bad but you just can't help it? I'm kinda feeling that right now, like i feel like i get so busy sometimes and have so little available time that I find myself going "how come people are always doing stuff when i'm free? why can't they do that stuff the other 99% of the time when i'm busy? like I said, i know selfish and jealous but it happens. like when bob seems always to be with garrett when i'm finally available. i know i'm a bad person for thinking like this but...sigh. its like i have to work all day everyday and if he's working nights we only can see each other on the weekend so why doesn't he see garrett while i'm at work? like i said "evil jess" but i can't help feeling shoved to the side a lot of the time this summer. and its not true and i'm sure bob feels like that too, like i'm so busy working and drumming that i don't make time for him. so blah it just sucks all around. yeah just thought i'd put it out there.