more than a daydream.
i want to get out of here so badly. i didnt go to work today. well...i am going to go to work, but i have homework that needs to be done. i didnt do anything all weekend after "earthdance" more like the biggest dissapointment in my life! mmm. im at the library right now. and all i can concentrate on is that i want to leave tucson. not permanently, but for six months or so. i feel like suffocating. ive been seriously contemplating just saving up a thousand dollars and walking out the door. of course i should probably find jaime a replacement room mate. today i was so tempted to take all my money out and just leave. dissapear to california or oregon. stay at a motel for a week or so, find a waitressing job, i know i could do it. ive been so depressed this past weekend. i miss joel. i was doing fine, but...its hard to get out of bed sometimes. fuck i want out now! i want to live a different life. in a different city a different state. responsibility is a ball and chain.