venting
So i decided that it helps to vent, so if you dont want to read this you dont have to.
Okay so my great uncle died, he has lived down the road from me all my life, and his wife that died a year ago was like my third grandma. I spent a lot of my childhood at there house with my cousins, and i have a lot of great memories there. Now their house is gonna be cleared out and sold, and that is really hard for me to think about. I will never be able to walk down the road and hang out with cousins, and i keep thinking of all the great things that have happened in that house. It is so hard for me to think about someone else living in myra and john's house. I feel like im losing a part of my childhood and thats really hard to deal with, im worried that i wont see my cousins very often anymore and that scares me cause ive always been close with them.
So today at the funeral i was sitting behind two of my older guy cousins that ive always thought of as tough, i dont really ever remember seeing them show emotion,and during the funeral they broke down and i lost it. I realized then how much he meant to them and how special John really was. He was a loving father, husband, grandfather, uncle, ect... And i know how hard this is on all of my family members and i wish that i could do something to help them, but there is really nothing i can do except being there for them whenever they need me. So im trying to be strong with this lose, but i have found out that it has made me feel a lot better to just let it all out and cry. So thank you all for listening and i feel a little better!
<3 again JR
Okay so my great uncle died, he has lived down the road from me all my life, and his wife that died a year ago was like my third grandma. I spent a lot of my childhood at there house with my cousins, and i have a lot of great memories there. Now their house is gonna be cleared out and sold, and that is really hard for me to think about. I will never be able to walk down the road and hang out with cousins, and i keep thinking of all the great things that have happened in that house. It is so hard for me to think about someone else living in myra and john's house. I feel like im losing a part of my childhood and thats really hard to deal with, im worried that i wont see my cousins very often anymore and that scares me cause ive always been close with them.
So today at the funeral i was sitting behind two of my older guy cousins that ive always thought of as tough, i dont really ever remember seeing them show emotion,and during the funeral they broke down and i lost it. I realized then how much he meant to them and how special John really was. He was a loving father, husband, grandfather, uncle, ect... And i know how hard this is on all of my family members and i wish that i could do something to help them, but there is really nothing i can do except being there for them whenever they need me. So im trying to be strong with this lose, but i have found out that it has made me feel a lot better to just let it all out and cry. So thank you all for listening and i feel a little better!
<3 again JR