in subject of disappearence/amator
It must always be the first time. The first time I see you, the first time I leave, the first time you answer me, the first time you are naked, the first time you leave, the first time I cry, the first time you return, the first time that everything is as if you were dead. The wonderful reverse of this beautiful secret is contained in these words: it must always be the last time. I discover you and will continue to discover you because I am always losing you. As soon as you appear you disappear, as soon as you are dressed you are naked. My eyes do not even keep your shadow, my hands no longer seek you. You have never been, your absense is to be no more.
-AB and PE
Conflict is sexual, semantic; difference is plural, sensual, and textual; meaning and sex are principles of construction, of constitution; difference is the very movement of dispersion, of friability, a shimmer; what matters is not the discovery, in a reading of the world and of the self, of certain oppositions but of encroachments, overflows, leaks, skids, shifts, slips.
-RB
i will just say that i am happy, but there are nights when i drink too much whiskey and dream too much and there are nightmares, too. control was depressing enough at first, but now after having dusted off my boxed set i think that i am really going mad. and all i can think of is how i want to move to Berlin.
My mind is occupied. Also with, Sebald's On the Natural History of Destruction. My house is occupied, too. He called the police on us, I went to the police on him and apparently it doesn't matter that he has threatened to kill me.
Also, Gee, Penny and Japanther are doing another benefit for 47 e.3rd street soon. Tell your friends.
http://www.ps122.org/performances/3d_dinosaur_death_band.html
I remember in order to be unhappy/happy--not in order to understand. I do not write, I do not shut myself up in order to write the enormous novel of time recaptured.
-?
-AB and PE
Conflict is sexual, semantic; difference is plural, sensual, and textual; meaning and sex are principles of construction, of constitution; difference is the very movement of dispersion, of friability, a shimmer; what matters is not the discovery, in a reading of the world and of the self, of certain oppositions but of encroachments, overflows, leaks, skids, shifts, slips.
-RB
i will just say that i am happy, but there are nights when i drink too much whiskey and dream too much and there are nightmares, too. control was depressing enough at first, but now after having dusted off my boxed set i think that i am really going mad. and all i can think of is how i want to move to Berlin.
My mind is occupied. Also with, Sebald's On the Natural History of Destruction. My house is occupied, too. He called the police on us, I went to the police on him and apparently it doesn't matter that he has threatened to kill me.
Also, Gee, Penny and Japanther are doing another benefit for 47 e.3rd street soon. Tell your friends.
http://www.ps122.org/performances/3d_dinosaur_death_band.html
I remember in order to be unhappy/happy--not in order to understand. I do not write, I do not shut myself up in order to write the enormous novel of time recaptured.
-?