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Hey guys. Time for another update... lets see where I left off...
Friday- had a good day and had a bad day. School was about even with the making me smile not feel so bad and making me feel like just walking out and leaving and screaming from being so ticked. the game was amazing. Had an amazing bus ride with my Sarayu love. I made 3 diff kinds of cookies for the band, color guard, and the band boosters. Talked to Amber, Jackie, and Cayla. I dressed as Pocahontas as my costume. My mom made it. It looked amazing and I felt really happy about it. I'm deff wearing it to the next pow wow in Sept next yr. I think i might make some additions though. Some of the guard girls wanted me to dance for them like Native Americans do but I said no lol. Then when the drum line was warming up, they’re like "oh they’re playing your song again, dance to your music" and I’m like haha.. And so I did but I just danced, I didn’t dance like natives do. They wanted me to go "ohohohohoh!" even though we natives don’t do that anymore really. At least the ones I’m associated with don’t. lol. But I did it anyways to make them smile. Then Eleanor kept trying to take my moccasins! I was like "what’s up with this, now the white woman is trying to take my shoes too" just to see what shed say and she started laughing. So goal accomplished. I got to keep my shoes though. She’s a sneaky one. lol. Good times chillin with her. And I fell and ripped my costume in the back on the bottom but it split to the hemline my mom made on there so it looked like those skirts with the slit in the back instead of on the side. So it still looked good. I got some good feedback; some said it looked better with the rip in it anyways. haha. The girls, the band, and the Boosters especially loved my cookies. It made it all worthwhile. I was so happy to hear all the good comments and a lot of ppl said thank you, which I appreciated so very much bc it took so long to make the 3 diff kinds of cookies. I made chocolate chip, oatmeal and snickerdoodles. Everyone loved them, it made me so happy!!!! I'll prolly do it again for the turkey bowl if I can, but I’m hoping to have another surprise (a diff one obviously) for the turkey bowl for the color guard girls. hehehe. And for my nutrition class - I have to make cupcakes for Monday. Lol so let me know if you want one, and if can I’ll see if I can make some extra and bring it to you. If not, then oh well. Some other time. :-P
There were so many awesome costumes last night. I can’t even begin to tell you. Too bad I left my camera at home. :-/ Oh well. Pretty much everyone took pics anyways so it’s all good.
Then, when my sister and my brother in law picked me up from school, she was such a poparazzi takin pics of me, lol. So funny though. And when I got in the car, I fell and got stuck behind the seat. It hurt, but it was hilarious.
Then I went to bed. Today I woke up, and went to Drivers Ed this morning for a driving hour. We went over parking- pulling into spots, backing into spots, etc and I did soo well. So that made me happy. Then i went home, went online, made a cool Linkin Park Layout for my myspace, and worked on some other jazz, and then I took a nap for a lil while. Felt pretty good. My sister scared me though, lol. It was hilarious. Then I fell asleep again, and woke up to Shera and Tony watching the batman begins movie. I caught the last half of it. suuuch a good movie.
A lot has been going through my conscious lately, and especially today. *Sigh* oh I don’t know...
When I woke up from my nap today... I layed there in bed just thinking for awhile, I held my dog and my teddy bear and just thought about a lot of things. Considering a lot of things, thinking about my future if God so graciously grants me one, about the present and where I am, and everything that’s going on in my life, all my friends and how they are and paths their taking, boys... don’t even get me started, and just everything. Plus I was sooooooooooooooo comfy for some reason. I adore my bed. lol. I love the random days when I wake up and I feel like I’m in Heaven, its so comfortable, and I was warm and woke up to this cutie pie dog and my teddy bear in my arms- too bad it wasn’t ... lol never mind. But I felt content for that moment. Then my mind took over... gr. lol.
There was more to my night but id rather not share it.
Anyways, I’m gonna end this here and I think I’m prolly gonna go to bed now. So goodnight everyone. Fare the well.
With Love,
My thoughts and prayers are with you all, (as always)
Love, Sheena
(ps- this cd is prolly the best one I have ever heard, next to linkin park. The lyrics and melody get me every time. I think you’d have to be me to understand.)
I Miss You.
Be Strong Little Root …
I hate this, because I wake up and go to bed always wondering how much longer I will live with all this heartache before I just lose it, and how much longer I will live before it kills me. I told my mother this too, Idk… When I talk to my mom, I always feel so much better. The last time we talked, we talked about my uncle, about her dad, about my dad, about college, about life, about boys, about our life, about everything, and I felt so much better afterwards. My mom understands how I feel and why I feel the way I do. I don’t know where I’d be or Who I’d be without her. It’s hard to even imagine. I hope nobody takes what I said the wrong way… if you do, then its bc you don’t understand what I’m talking about, and you assume things. So please don’t take what I said the wrong way or blow it out of proportion…
11-8-59 - 1-21-04 <3 there are just no words…
And this is where I say Goodnight. Ttyl. (partly because of the above, and partly bc my dad is being a jerk again, and I’m trying to avoid getting yelled at)
Friday- had a good day and had a bad day. School was about even with the making me smile not feel so bad and making me feel like just walking out and leaving and screaming from being so ticked. the game was amazing. Had an amazing bus ride with my Sarayu love. I made 3 diff kinds of cookies for the band, color guard, and the band boosters. Talked to Amber, Jackie, and Cayla. I dressed as Pocahontas as my costume. My mom made it. It looked amazing and I felt really happy about it. I'm deff wearing it to the next pow wow in Sept next yr. I think i might make some additions though. Some of the guard girls wanted me to dance for them like Native Americans do but I said no lol. Then when the drum line was warming up, they’re like "oh they’re playing your song again, dance to your music" and I’m like haha.. And so I did but I just danced, I didn’t dance like natives do. They wanted me to go "ohohohohoh!" even though we natives don’t do that anymore really. At least the ones I’m associated with don’t. lol. But I did it anyways to make them smile. Then Eleanor kept trying to take my moccasins! I was like "what’s up with this, now the white woman is trying to take my shoes too" just to see what shed say and she started laughing. So goal accomplished. I got to keep my shoes though. She’s a sneaky one. lol. Good times chillin with her. And I fell and ripped my costume in the back on the bottom but it split to the hemline my mom made on there so it looked like those skirts with the slit in the back instead of on the side. So it still looked good. I got some good feedback; some said it looked better with the rip in it anyways. haha. The girls, the band, and the Boosters especially loved my cookies. It made it all worthwhile. I was so happy to hear all the good comments and a lot of ppl said thank you, which I appreciated so very much bc it took so long to make the 3 diff kinds of cookies. I made chocolate chip, oatmeal and snickerdoodles. Everyone loved them, it made me so happy!!!! I'll prolly do it again for the turkey bowl if I can, but I’m hoping to have another surprise (a diff one obviously) for the turkey bowl for the color guard girls. hehehe. And for my nutrition class - I have to make cupcakes for Monday. Lol so let me know if you want one, and if can I’ll see if I can make some extra and bring it to you. If not, then oh well. Some other time. :-P
There were so many awesome costumes last night. I can’t even begin to tell you. Too bad I left my camera at home. :-/ Oh well. Pretty much everyone took pics anyways so it’s all good.
Then, when my sister and my brother in law picked me up from school, she was such a poparazzi takin pics of me, lol. So funny though. And when I got in the car, I fell and got stuck behind the seat. It hurt, but it was hilarious.
Then I went to bed. Today I woke up, and went to Drivers Ed this morning for a driving hour. We went over parking- pulling into spots, backing into spots, etc and I did soo well. So that made me happy. Then i went home, went online, made a cool Linkin Park Layout for my myspace, and worked on some other jazz, and then I took a nap for a lil while. Felt pretty good. My sister scared me though, lol. It was hilarious. Then I fell asleep again, and woke up to Shera and Tony watching the batman begins movie. I caught the last half of it. suuuch a good movie.
A lot has been going through my conscious lately, and especially today. *Sigh* oh I don’t know...
When I woke up from my nap today... I layed there in bed just thinking for awhile, I held my dog and my teddy bear and just thought about a lot of things. Considering a lot of things, thinking about my future if God so graciously grants me one, about the present and where I am, and everything that’s going on in my life, all my friends and how they are and paths their taking, boys... don’t even get me started, and just everything. Plus I was sooooooooooooooo comfy for some reason. I adore my bed. lol. I love the random days when I wake up and I feel like I’m in Heaven, its so comfortable, and I was warm and woke up to this cutie pie dog and my teddy bear in my arms- too bad it wasn’t ... lol never mind. But I felt content for that moment. Then my mind took over... gr. lol.
There was more to my night but id rather not share it.
Anyways, I’m gonna end this here and I think I’m prolly gonna go to bed now. So goodnight everyone. Fare the well.
With Love,
My thoughts and prayers are with you all, (as always)
Love, Sheena
(ps- this cd is prolly the best one I have ever heard, next to linkin park. The lyrics and melody get me every time. I think you’d have to be me to understand.)
I Miss You.
Be Strong Little Root …
I hate this, because I wake up and go to bed always wondering how much longer I will live with all this heartache before I just lose it, and how much longer I will live before it kills me. I told my mother this too, Idk… When I talk to my mom, I always feel so much better. The last time we talked, we talked about my uncle, about her dad, about my dad, about college, about life, about boys, about our life, about everything, and I felt so much better afterwards. My mom understands how I feel and why I feel the way I do. I don’t know where I’d be or Who I’d be without her. It’s hard to even imagine. I hope nobody takes what I said the wrong way… if you do, then its bc you don’t understand what I’m talking about, and you assume things. So please don’t take what I said the wrong way or blow it out of proportion…
11-8-59 - 1-21-04 <3 there are just no words…
And this is where I say Goodnight. Ttyl. (partly because of the above, and partly bc my dad is being a jerk again, and I’m trying to avoid getting yelled at)