...I get sentimental at ridiculous hours in the morning...
I don't know why...but lately I have been tearing up or even crying really hard at night...at these ridiculous hours in the morning. =.= What I have I been thinking about that made me cry so much?
Well, you guys don't have to worry...it's just tears of joy. xD;;
Anna.. Thank you for always being there...literally. And you're one out of two people who I got so close to.. I'm so happy that you approached me that one day in Chinese school. Now that I think back..it's hard to imagine life without you. Thank you for being so supportive, logical, funny, amazing, smart...everything. You're like the perfect person. We've had so many memories together..especially online. xDD Thank you for cheering me up a lot. You've always made my day. Thank you for doing all these and being so close to me.
Mom...you sacrifice so much so I could be happy.. I know that when you're so protective, I know that you just don't want me to turn into some gangster or something. Thank you so much...for not having an abortion. For taking 9 months with the pain so I could have a life.. It's mainly because of you that I could know all these wonderful people. Thank for for just wanting the best for me, so I could have a bright future. I am regretting that I ever said I hated Chinese school. I know I'm luckier than many...since some people actually want to learn, but it'd be harder.. Thank you for taking care of me, always.
Dad...although I really do think you shouldn't have spoiled me so much when I was little... But now I realize that you just don't want to see me sad. And also so I could grow up thinking that everything was going to be okay, and that I could just be a good girl and get whatever I wanted.. So I could live in a dream and not worry about anything..since when I grow older, it'll be hard.. But I still don't see the point.. Still, thank you for supporting me all the way with my interests..my beliefs..my hobbies, my everything. Thank you for supporting me on my dream.
Joy.. Hah, you're probably the main reason why I still bother to attend Chinese school. Thank you for caring. Thank you for...just being you. So I could critisize you endlessly about your interests. Haha, I remember back then when you and Anna thought I was so smart.. Pffft, yeah right. :P Ne? You're so unique, it's funny. Thank you for always listening to me. Even though I'm such an idiot. Thank you for being you, and being friends with me.
Bre.. I can't thank you enough...for always supporting me and giving me a enthusiasm. You're just so cute and bold. Although you're really straightforward sometimes. I'm sorry I couldn't make it to so many get-togethers. But thank you for always understanding. LOL, I think I've become more of who I am, just from talking to you. I don't know how.. Thank you for thinking I'm smart. It really does make me feel more intelligent. Thank you for thinking I'm Japanese. It's as close as I can get.. ;D Thank you for being so happy. It makes me happy too.
Kanako, I've met you on MySpace. Thank you for accepting my friend request. Thank you for talking to me about everything. Thank you for telling me about you life in Japan, since I can't live it at this moment. Thank you for making that video for me. Thank you for putting me number one on your top 8. Thank you for thinking I'm Japanese. It really does make me feel more closer to obtaining the state of being Japanese.. xD; Thank you for sharing everything about your life, your interests, your hobbies with me. Thank you for being my friend, yet a stranger..
Aiko..you're amazing and you know it. Thank you, for being so random and happy-go-lucky. Thank you for accepting my friendship at the end of 4th grade. Thank you for being so supportive all the time. Thank you for extending my love for anime and manga. Thank you for introducing me to so many series, and encouraging me to join you in the fandomness. I have to especially thank you for creating who I am today. Most of my personality, I have to say, I have gotten from you. Your personality is so unique, so contagious. It's hard not to be all happyhappy with you too. Thank you, for everything mentioned above. Thank you.
Shizuka... Pushing me deeper into the madness of Jrock. I have to thank you so much. You motivate me to playing the drums, even if I don't anyway.. It makes me wish I had more experience...and also more motivation to continue what I start. Thank you for introducing me to Japanese fashion styles. For making me more Japanese-esque, for all your bouncy KYANDIpop-ness. Thank you, it really does make me feel warm inside.. Thank you for making music such an important part of my life now. I miss you a lot too, since you don't talk to me anymore. >-> Also, thank you for making my interest of make-up higher.. Thank you especially for introducing me to so many things, and pushing me further in many things I like. I really appreciate it.
Kyu..Tammie..DT. I don't know what to call you anymore. Haha. Anyway..thank you for being so cute~ It makes me strive to be as cute as you. I also love your style. Thank you for always being there, to listen to my rantings of my fandom. To listen to my achievements. You're a really good listener. I envy you a lot, and I really strive to keep up with you. Thank you for being so far ahead, it just makes me have more goals, and I appreciate that. Most of all, thank you for confiding in me about your life. Thank you so much for trusting me. That makes me feel really..........trusted. xD
Mimi... Haha, if I was a guy, I would fall in love with you instantly. You're so cute, your skin is so perfect, and you're so random. I have to thank you for influencing me. to be more random too. You're a super good artist, and you have such a cute personality. Thank you for joking with me all the time. It makes me feel needed. xD Thank you also for including me in your jokes. Again, it makes me feel needed, wanted, included. Usually I'm the one making the weird jokes. Hahahaha. xD Also, thank you for caring too...and being so energetic. Thank you for just being yourself, so I could be proud to call you my friend. :D
Yoshiko..thank you for making the TeniPuriDSP so I could meet so many other people. I can't describe your personality...it's just you. So thank you for being Yoshiko. Thank you for all the favors you did for me. Thank you for always making me feel included, and part of the family, even when I'm not as close to everyone as everyone else is with each other. xD Thank you for playing RO with me all the time. Thank you for all the jokes we had with each other. I swear, I laughed so much around you. Thank you for not being anybody else but Yoshiko.
Kimchi, thank you. Thank you for being able to draw so cute. It makes me squeal all over. :3 Thank you for...just...everything. You, too, also make me feel included and part of the group. Thank you for your fanservice. xDD And thank you for giving me inspiration for the roleplaying. Thank you, for being so cool. Thank you for eating cute. Thank you for being there all the time. Thank you, because my addiction to RO somehow leads up to you. Thank you for being so creative. Thank you for being so....unique. You're truly a special friend.
Colleen...you're just such a good cosplayer, it makes me jealous. >-> Thank you for being skinny, so I know how much skinnier I have to get to be skinny and pretty. Thank you for being a good cosplayer, I also get motivation from that. Thank you for being Colleen, so I can be proud to say, "I know someone who is stick skinny and so cool." Thank you for being tall too, because it motivates me to drink my milk and be healthy. Thank you a lot, Colleen.
Emiko or Kathleen...or Katie. Thank you for being so good at tennis, even though I haven't seen you play. I know you're good. It motivates me to try harder at tennis, so when we play together, I would actually stand a chance. Thank you for being so...creative and independant. And also individual and unique. I don't know how, but you are. Thank you, for being so gifted at what you do and what you like to do. It makes me try harder at my hobbies and at life. Thank you, for being so motivating.
Alice, thank you for being my sister. I'm so glad that our families know each other. You're so gifted and talented. It's amazing. I envy your piano skills. So amazing. Seriously. I can't emphasize enough how, just, so amazing and highly intelligent you are. Not to mention mature, yet still have a sense of humor. I have to admit that you are quite quirky at times. And I don't even know what that means... Anyway, thank you...thank you..thank you for being so considerate and amazing...
Dennis...the menace.. Not really. I'm sorry for being so annoying in the past. I really do look up to you. You're smart and so computer-y.. If you want to improve at something, you actually do it. You do improve fast too. It's amazing. I still remember that time I took your yearbook out of your backpack. I had no idea you needed it the next day. I really do feel guilty now.. But thank you, I love you a lot. Thank you for being so...cool...so smart, so I can proudly tell all my friends that my older brother is so amazing at everything he does.
Special thanks and appreciation to:
Theresa
Jeanny
Kelly
Raymond
Chloe
Everyone else who thinks they know the real me, and knows that I have nothing against them.
Thank you, I'm especially happy that I know you.
Thank you everyone, for being my friend. Trust me, I do appreciate it so much, I cry about it a lot recently.. Thank you.
I really can't thank you enough..
ARIGATOU GOZAIMASHITA.
Well, you guys don't have to worry...it's just tears of joy. xD;;
Anna.. Thank you for always being there...literally. And you're one out of two people who I got so close to.. I'm so happy that you approached me that one day in Chinese school. Now that I think back..it's hard to imagine life without you. Thank you for being so supportive, logical, funny, amazing, smart...everything. You're like the perfect person. We've had so many memories together..especially online. xDD Thank you for cheering me up a lot. You've always made my day. Thank you for doing all these and being so close to me.
Mom...you sacrifice so much so I could be happy.. I know that when you're so protective, I know that you just don't want me to turn into some gangster or something. Thank you so much...for not having an abortion. For taking 9 months with the pain so I could have a life.. It's mainly because of you that I could know all these wonderful people. Thank for for just wanting the best for me, so I could have a bright future. I am regretting that I ever said I hated Chinese school. I know I'm luckier than many...since some people actually want to learn, but it'd be harder.. Thank you for taking care of me, always.
Dad...although I really do think you shouldn't have spoiled me so much when I was little... But now I realize that you just don't want to see me sad. And also so I could grow up thinking that everything was going to be okay, and that I could just be a good girl and get whatever I wanted.. So I could live in a dream and not worry about anything..since when I grow older, it'll be hard.. But I still don't see the point.. Still, thank you for supporting me all the way with my interests..my beliefs..my hobbies, my everything. Thank you for supporting me on my dream.
Joy.. Hah, you're probably the main reason why I still bother to attend Chinese school. Thank you for caring. Thank you for...just being you. So I could critisize you endlessly about your interests. Haha, I remember back then when you and Anna thought I was so smart.. Pffft, yeah right. :P Ne? You're so unique, it's funny. Thank you for always listening to me. Even though I'm such an idiot. Thank you for being you, and being friends with me.
Bre.. I can't thank you enough...for always supporting me and giving me a enthusiasm. You're just so cute and bold. Although you're really straightforward sometimes. I'm sorry I couldn't make it to so many get-togethers. But thank you for always understanding. LOL, I think I've become more of who I am, just from talking to you. I don't know how.. Thank you for thinking I'm smart. It really does make me feel more intelligent. Thank you for thinking I'm Japanese. It's as close as I can get.. ;D Thank you for being so happy. It makes me happy too.
Kanako, I've met you on MySpace. Thank you for accepting my friend request. Thank you for talking to me about everything. Thank you for telling me about you life in Japan, since I can't live it at this moment. Thank you for making that video for me. Thank you for putting me number one on your top 8. Thank you for thinking I'm Japanese. It really does make me feel more closer to obtaining the state of being Japanese.. xD; Thank you for sharing everything about your life, your interests, your hobbies with me. Thank you for being my friend, yet a stranger..
Aiko..you're amazing and you know it. Thank you, for being so random and happy-go-lucky. Thank you for accepting my friendship at the end of 4th grade. Thank you for being so supportive all the time. Thank you for extending my love for anime and manga. Thank you for introducing me to so many series, and encouraging me to join you in the fandomness. I have to especially thank you for creating who I am today. Most of my personality, I have to say, I have gotten from you. Your personality is so unique, so contagious. It's hard not to be all happyhappy with you too. Thank you, for everything mentioned above. Thank you.
Shizuka... Pushing me deeper into the madness of Jrock. I have to thank you so much. You motivate me to playing the drums, even if I don't anyway.. It makes me wish I had more experience...and also more motivation to continue what I start. Thank you for introducing me to Japanese fashion styles. For making me more Japanese-esque, for all your bouncy KYANDIpop-ness. Thank you, it really does make me feel warm inside.. Thank you for making music such an important part of my life now. I miss you a lot too, since you don't talk to me anymore. >-> Also, thank you for making my interest of make-up higher.. Thank you especially for introducing me to so many things, and pushing me further in many things I like. I really appreciate it.
Kyu..Tammie..DT. I don't know what to call you anymore. Haha. Anyway..thank you for being so cute~ It makes me strive to be as cute as you. I also love your style. Thank you for always being there, to listen to my rantings of my fandom. To listen to my achievements. You're a really good listener. I envy you a lot, and I really strive to keep up with you. Thank you for being so far ahead, it just makes me have more goals, and I appreciate that. Most of all, thank you for confiding in me about your life. Thank you so much for trusting me. That makes me feel really..........trusted. xD
Mimi... Haha, if I was a guy, I would fall in love with you instantly. You're so cute, your skin is so perfect, and you're so random. I have to thank you for influencing me. to be more random too. You're a super good artist, and you have such a cute personality. Thank you for joking with me all the time. It makes me feel needed. xD Thank you also for including me in your jokes. Again, it makes me feel needed, wanted, included. Usually I'm the one making the weird jokes. Hahahaha. xD Also, thank you for caring too...and being so energetic. Thank you for just being yourself, so I could be proud to call you my friend. :D
Yoshiko..thank you for making the TeniPuriDSP so I could meet so many other people. I can't describe your personality...it's just you. So thank you for being Yoshiko. Thank you for all the favors you did for me. Thank you for always making me feel included, and part of the family, even when I'm not as close to everyone as everyone else is with each other. xD Thank you for playing RO with me all the time. Thank you for all the jokes we had with each other. I swear, I laughed so much around you. Thank you for not being anybody else but Yoshiko.
Kimchi, thank you. Thank you for being able to draw so cute. It makes me squeal all over. :3 Thank you for...just...everything. You, too, also make me feel included and part of the group. Thank you for your fanservice. xDD And thank you for giving me inspiration for the roleplaying. Thank you, for being so cool. Thank you for eating cute. Thank you for being there all the time. Thank you, because my addiction to RO somehow leads up to you. Thank you for being so creative. Thank you for being so....unique. You're truly a special friend.
Colleen...you're just such a good cosplayer, it makes me jealous. >-> Thank you for being skinny, so I know how much skinnier I have to get to be skinny and pretty. Thank you for being a good cosplayer, I also get motivation from that. Thank you for being Colleen, so I can be proud to say, "I know someone who is stick skinny and so cool." Thank you for being tall too, because it motivates me to drink my milk and be healthy. Thank you a lot, Colleen.
Emiko or Kathleen...or Katie. Thank you for being so good at tennis, even though I haven't seen you play. I know you're good. It motivates me to try harder at tennis, so when we play together, I would actually stand a chance. Thank you for being so...creative and independant. And also individual and unique. I don't know how, but you are. Thank you, for being so gifted at what you do and what you like to do. It makes me try harder at my hobbies and at life. Thank you, for being so motivating.
Alice, thank you for being my sister. I'm so glad that our families know each other. You're so gifted and talented. It's amazing. I envy your piano skills. So amazing. Seriously. I can't emphasize enough how, just, so amazing and highly intelligent you are. Not to mention mature, yet still have a sense of humor. I have to admit that you are quite quirky at times. And I don't even know what that means... Anyway, thank you...thank you..thank you for being so considerate and amazing...
Dennis...the menace.. Not really. I'm sorry for being so annoying in the past. I really do look up to you. You're smart and so computer-y.. If you want to improve at something, you actually do it. You do improve fast too. It's amazing. I still remember that time I took your yearbook out of your backpack. I had no idea you needed it the next day. I really do feel guilty now.. But thank you, I love you a lot. Thank you for being so...cool...so smart, so I can proudly tell all my friends that my older brother is so amazing at everything he does.
Special thanks and appreciation to:
Theresa
Jeanny
Kelly
Raymond
Chloe
Everyone else who thinks they know the real me, and knows that I have nothing against them.
Thank you, I'm especially happy that I know you.
Thank you everyone, for being my friend. Trust me, I do appreciate it so much, I cry about it a lot recently.. Thank you.
I really can't thank you enough..
ARIGATOU GOZAIMASHITA.