I Wanna' Go Home
So, I live in California now. I didn't want to, but here I am anyway. I am attempting to keep my mind open and find the neato stuff and people that are sure to be here. However, I'm also bound and determined to go home some day.
So when difficult things happen, what bubbles up for me, the internal voice says, "I HATE THIS PLACE" and there are tears.
I wonder if i should try to let go of the desire to go home, in case that's what is making it hard. And then I wonder if I try to deny what I really want, if I'll just make myself crazier. I don't know which would be the healthier thing. I don't want to let go of home, that's for sure.
I want to stay cheerful for the boys, they don't need a gloomy mom making it harder for them, either.
This is a tough row to hoe.
And, damn! I just wanna' go home.