UHG, my brain hurts
So I am in the middle of my finals right now and my brain is slowly turning to mush. I dont want to think anymore!
To properly update my love-life (if anyone cares) -
Blaine was my first real boyfriend ever. All the emotions that go with a first love i.e. loosing virginity etc, were present in that relationship. But as we all know, first loves never last. Jimmy was a big one (boyfriend wise). I loved him, but for all the wrong reasons. John . . . well, what can I say about that. It was the wrong time, the wrong place, wrong circumstances and MOST OF ALL the wrong person. The love John and I had for each other was never real. We never actually got past the superficial stage of convenience. He never really KNEW me . . . and GOD KNOWS I never knew him! So I cant even count that as love or a friendship for that matter. Friends tell each other thing; friends are connected. The only time I ever felt connected to John was the day of our daughter's birth. And that just isnt enough for a relationship to last.
Jesse and I have been together for about 4 months and I have never been so in love in all my life. There is no superficial bullshit! He is more man that anyone I have ever known. He handles up to his shit . . . he takes care of his responsibilities without qualm. We can laugh and play video games then have the best sex a body could want. WHATTA MAN! He loves me like I have never felt. We are connected on a plain that is so deep the fathoms of the ocean are put to shame. I see a hitching in my future!
To properly update my love-life (if anyone cares) -
Blaine was my first real boyfriend ever. All the emotions that go with a first love i.e. loosing virginity etc, were present in that relationship. But as we all know, first loves never last. Jimmy was a big one (boyfriend wise). I loved him, but for all the wrong reasons. John . . . well, what can I say about that. It was the wrong time, the wrong place, wrong circumstances and MOST OF ALL the wrong person. The love John and I had for each other was never real. We never actually got past the superficial stage of convenience. He never really KNEW me . . . and GOD KNOWS I never knew him! So I cant even count that as love or a friendship for that matter. Friends tell each other thing; friends are connected. The only time I ever felt connected to John was the day of our daughter's birth. And that just isnt enough for a relationship to last.
Jesse and I have been together for about 4 months and I have never been so in love in all my life. There is no superficial bullshit! He is more man that anyone I have ever known. He handles up to his shit . . . he takes care of his responsibilities without qualm. We can laugh and play video games then have the best sex a body could want. WHATTA MAN! He loves me like I have never felt. We are connected on a plain that is so deep the fathoms of the ocean are put to shame. I see a hitching in my future!