just another to add on to the last one..
Since i've gotten Andy back. I've been so happy. There isnt anything in this world that could make me more happier. I love him to death. The question is why am i feeling sadness. Things with my dad are ok i guess. They never get better, just always worse. Sometimes I just want a father around, a real loving caring Father. I know its nothing i'm ever gonna get. Its like he is trying to be there, but now i dont want him anywhere around me. Its time for winter, the weathers changing. All the [p]ast is coming back to hunt me. X-mas day is going to be so horrible. X-Mas break itself is not gonna be a fun time for me. yeah, i mean come on its almost been a year since a few heart breaking incedents have happen. i know i should be over them. Recovering from what happen isnt as easy as people make it seem. so who fucken cares if i cry. Im hurting inside. and if all you tell me to do is get over its the past. i cant just snap and be happy. sorry, doesnt work like that. fuck off. im going to be sad or depressed it happens. I wish i was a stronger person so i could handle things better but since im not, ill just cry. Sometimes I sit down at school, looking around. Looking at diffrent people. i see it, how there are the fake friends and the real ones. just watching a few fake friends of my own. watching how they treat people. Using another human for every reason to come apoun. it makes me [S]ick. why do peiple use others? I just don't understand why people are the way they are. why complain its how the world works.