I can't hold back, I can't slow down though you know I wish I could.

[shecries_muse_]

The Desperate Act Of A Willful Soul

I am waking here
In this now that is not a nightmare
Lived it in my dreams
Fighting it now
I am waking
Groping and disbelieving
Here

There is no time for fear
Courage dictates what we must refuse
The having gets easier with the keeping
Is needed for this waking
Here

It is in this instant
Terrifying whirl of confusion
Horror where there is no help
Tears without eyes enough for them
Electric wrath with no outlet
You only have this
Tiny grain of a quickly dying moment
Here

Buried self and survival bound
I am only an action
Nothing else left
In me
But the motion of the
Last truth of my existence
They call it courage
This is never what I wanted
Here

Fight of the raging mindless
Mine will conquer all
I am waking
Strength in my action
Can't hold back the wave
Because I will not give up
They call it courage
I have nothing else
Not here