I need to get out of here

[shecomesincolor]

I can't really seem to decide what it is that I want out of life and what I want from other people. I just feel so restless and dissatisfied with everything. People who are important to me that I thought I was also important to have already gone back to school without so much as a phone call. Others complain that they hate when people don't return

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[hairtie22]

So, I think you're too hard on yourself. This kinda stuff happens to everyone. Ya know that you're really happy with yourself when you say "I just don't give a fuck what everyone else thinks". Not meaning of course you abandon your own morals and beliefs because you're mad at the world, but because you're doing your own thing and not worrying about how other people respond. Do you know how many times EVERYONE gets blown off? do you know how many times I've been blown off? I know, how do you think i've felt the past 3 "poker nights" when ONE out of 10 ppl show/respond? i could have gotten upset, held a grudge on all of you. BUt really, I decided I didn't give a fuck, and made other plans, and had just as much fun. Yeah, I understand the feeling of calling and getting groups together, and everyone bailing or not responding. See, I think I've figured out that people put up a front. A fake front that keeps them from being honest. Example: A few kids from GA state were going to go to mrytle beach last weekend. I organized 2 WEEKS in advance so they could take off work. a few said they were going, and when it came time none of them followed through. As it turns out from my mom, one of the kids that said they could go couldn't because their parents wouldn't let them, yet he never even bothered to tell me. people are stupid, and a lot of them don't have very nice manners. But if you keep doing everything you do, call people, respond to people, people are going to get the point that you will follow through and you'll look like the better person. I mean, when i'm making plans i think about the people who actually sound genuinly interested or have in the past. And yeah it's annoying, but if you have to call to get everyone over and over, then do it- yeah it's frustrating, but eventually someone will respond! And honestly, everyone at our age is going through all the same stuff you are, and i bet if you ask all of those people that are having "so much fun" and "hanging out every night" what they're really doing they'll respond similiar to you.

And as for boys it sounds like you have a lot of drama from rants 2 and 3. I mean, what kind of boy attention do you want? sounds like you get plenty! but seriously, i believe the key to attracting guys is to once again "just don't give a fuck". my advice- don't go out looking for one, let them come to you...if a guy finds you interesting he's gonna take the time to get to know you. yeah yeah it might take a while but when guys finally do respond you know it will be out of real interest and not just a booty call (unless of course that's what you want ;) ) and Becky, you're beautiful and a good person, there is a guy out there that will appreciate that.

But yeah- that's my advice. might not be quite what you're looking for but has helped me over-look a lot of things- I know i've never been as happy as i am now, and i'll know you'll get there too.