I need to get out of here

[shecomesincolor]

I can't really seem to decide what it is that I want out of life and what I want from other people. I just feel so restless and dissatisfied with everything. People who are important to me that I thought I was also important to have already gone back to school without so much as a phone call. Others complain that they hate when people don't return

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[anonymous]

hey girl~ first off, i just wanna say im truly sorry for not calling you this summer. i would really have loved to see you, but i have been pretty busy and not often in town.

anyways i felt EXACTLY like that last year (your rant 1). It was completely depressing. Fortunately, and I'm hoping it will be the same for you, this second summer has been a ton better. i have kept in touch with most of my true friends even if i don't see them much, and there is a better balance that way anyway because it is impossible to juggle friends in different cities evenly when you are only living in one. plus, i'm not gonna lie, i have learned and changed a LOT (in my opinion for the better, and isnt that all that matters?) in college and people just drift apart sometimes. i just hope that it is a mutual understanding and not just me who remembers them and still holds them close to my heart.

just put your efforts into people who DO reciprocate when you give something and choose your friends wisely. Maybe its just me, but it seems that finding genuine people and discerning the good people is a lot easier in college. the ones who are are loyal and true are on a completely different level from the ones who are still obsessed with being popular and the center of attention.

and as for rants 2 & 3, i hear ya. i am so sick of bullshit guys who i used to be dumb enough to fall for. on the plus side, at least we are growing up and know more about what we truly want in a man. we are just smart as hell, that's all. try calling a guy out when he uses a lame pick-up line. it'll freak the hell out of him. they think they're the only ones who know the game. its very satisfying.

also~ as always, i love your entries to death. they are always so beautifully written no matter how downbeat the subject is. i admire you views on life. hope you have a wonderful second year in college. :)
-amanda

[teacuphearts]

bah! i guess i wasnt signed in when i wrote that last thing but its okay cause i thought of something else to say. its retarded, but whatever.

dude. i feel like i need a therapist too. or some freaking meds to make me feel normal. but from people i've talked to everyone seems to feel this way. the world is just an insane place to be these days. stick with it. you are stronger than you think and one of the most intelligent girls i know. don't even sweat it. just enjoy life and keep doing the becky things that you've always known and loved. it's too short to be scared or sad. make the best of everything.

hm. i think i will attempt to take my own advice. i have stressed and cried and tried everything else but that. here's to a fresh start and a better year~ :)