On the edge of things
So it has been ages since I updated, and a whole lot and a whole lot of nothing has happened...
- For one, we have taken on another roommate; a one Jacob Barnett, as he is in fact attending CMU this fall; the apartment is officially a total wreck as Chris had to empty the crap out of the spare bedroom, and is slow goings about figuring out what to do with it all. It may get extremely crowded around here in any case... It was tense enough with just the three of us, but I have no idea what's gonna happen this year.
- I seriously can't wait for the Hotel Front Desk job to open up so I can get the funk outta Dodge (or Security, whichever comes first)
- I completed the FAFSA for Graduate School, and am turning in a portfolio of qualified writings to get accepted into the Masters program in English. After rereading and fixing up old papers, I seriously envy the brain I had while in school. None of it feels like my writing any more; it never does. If it leaves my brain and hits a page, it seems purely subconscious, or the work of some muse. I can't wait to get back to that point again.
- Megan and I are doing awesome. It is getting pretty heavy serious with these feelings we have for each other, even though all we do is be lazy together. Common ground, right? Anyways, she turns me into a wreck when I can't see her... it always feels too good to be true, I wonder why she even wants me around, I ponder my worth and become a depressed moron... and then I see her, and she tells me she's mine, and all my problems disappear.
I really hate being so unconfident in myself. It's neurotic, I know it is even when it happens, but I can't shake off my worries without the help of another. I'm emotionally dependent, even though I'm mentally a loner. It's a little too much tug of war for one mind.
I really don't want to take anything that's going on these days for granted, is the thing. But I am finding happiness again, and it has a lot to do with her.
- For one, we have taken on another roommate; a one Jacob Barnett, as he is in fact attending CMU this fall; the apartment is officially a total wreck as Chris had to empty the crap out of the spare bedroom, and is slow goings about figuring out what to do with it all. It may get extremely crowded around here in any case... It was tense enough with just the three of us, but I have no idea what's gonna happen this year.
- I seriously can't wait for the Hotel Front Desk job to open up so I can get the funk outta Dodge (or Security, whichever comes first)
- I completed the FAFSA for Graduate School, and am turning in a portfolio of qualified writings to get accepted into the Masters program in English. After rereading and fixing up old papers, I seriously envy the brain I had while in school. None of it feels like my writing any more; it never does. If it leaves my brain and hits a page, it seems purely subconscious, or the work of some muse. I can't wait to get back to that point again.
- Megan and I are doing awesome. It is getting pretty heavy serious with these feelings we have for each other, even though all we do is be lazy together. Common ground, right? Anyways, she turns me into a wreck when I can't see her... it always feels too good to be true, I wonder why she even wants me around, I ponder my worth and become a depressed moron... and then I see her, and she tells me she's mine, and all my problems disappear.
I really hate being so unconfident in myself. It's neurotic, I know it is even when it happens, but I can't shake off my worries without the help of another. I'm emotionally dependent, even though I'm mentally a loner. It's a little too much tug of war for one mind.
I really don't want to take anything that's going on these days for granted, is the thing. But I am finding happiness again, and it has a lot to do with her.