Alcoholic? Me?!
Yeah, it's day 25 (fourth week) being sober and I'm really impressed. I've been drinking excessively for the last four'ish years and now after I decided that it can no longer continue.. It seems to be no big a deal. I don't miss drinking. And isn't that the true base of alcoholism? You simply can't be sober without a fight.
My problem was mostly "once you chug, you cannot stop". I drank too much too quick and ended up doing stuff I regretted, lost my control and evolved into a total cunt. Now that I've stopped, I've been doing stuff. Doing different projects at school and out, I've seen people and been places. I've even lost approximately two kilos just for spite and all of my sleeping problems have disappeared. Although going out with Roora every day also helped get rid of my insomnia.
Tons and tons of cola has been wasted though :p but that's under control already. It's just that every time I go out with people, I forget that I can't even take a sip of booze because of my Antabus medication. My thoughts go something like "Hmm, that cider smells lovely, I'll ask for a sip. Ah, bugger, I can't because it might cause serious physical drawbacks. Oh well, back to drinking my own alcohol-free drink." It really really doesn't bother me. Several people ask me how do I manage being sober at a bar or similar location. But I really enjoy the situation, atmosphere and the company of my friends. I can't ask for more :3 and watching drunk people do stupid stuff is always a wonderful pastime x)
I think I'll start collection other projects at school the next year. There are always customer jobs needing to be done and other stuff. And my main priority is really to make even a small name for myself and get a good kick start from that. After I graduate, I'll have experience in the field and some pieces I can refer to and make a portfolio out of. And exp is a really powerful ally in this line of business.
Back to knitting and then garment bagging :D
My problem was mostly "once you chug, you cannot stop". I drank too much too quick and ended up doing stuff I regretted, lost my control and evolved into a total cunt. Now that I've stopped, I've been doing stuff. Doing different projects at school and out, I've seen people and been places. I've even lost approximately two kilos just for spite and all of my sleeping problems have disappeared. Although going out with Roora every day also helped get rid of my insomnia.
Tons and tons of cola has been wasted though :p but that's under control already. It's just that every time I go out with people, I forget that I can't even take a sip of booze because of my Antabus medication. My thoughts go something like "Hmm, that cider smells lovely, I'll ask for a sip. Ah, bugger, I can't because it might cause serious physical drawbacks. Oh well, back to drinking my own alcohol-free drink." It really really doesn't bother me. Several people ask me how do I manage being sober at a bar or similar location. But I really enjoy the situation, atmosphere and the company of my friends. I can't ask for more :3 and watching drunk people do stupid stuff is always a wonderful pastime x)
I think I'll start collection other projects at school the next year. There are always customer jobs needing to be done and other stuff. And my main priority is really to make even a small name for myself and get a good kick start from that. After I graduate, I'll have experience in the field and some pieces I can refer to and make a portfolio out of. And exp is a really powerful ally in this line of business.
Back to knitting and then garment bagging :D