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Thanks to everyone for your good wishes and sympathy after my last post.
You'll be glad to hear that I'm in a much better place now than I was then. I'm settled in nicely to my new apartment, and I'm adjusting to living alone. Actually, the only thing I'm adjusting to is not having to let someone know what my plans are. I'm realising now just how much Steve wasn't a part of my life. Which is actually one of the saddest realisations about the whole thing, because I really did love him so much.
As far as Steve goes...I think I miss the idea of him more than Steve himself. I miss knowing that there's someone at home for me if I need them. But to be totally honest, he wasn't there as much as he should have been. He was physically in the house, but that was it. I wasn't getting hugs, I wasn't getting conversation, I wasn't getting support.
And I have some very good friends who are only an email or a phone call away, and quite frankly they support me more than he ever did.
Interestingly enough, there are a couple of friends who I see more now than I have in a long time. I'm fairly sure that one of them is only calling me more because he's worried about me, but I wasn't sure about the other one. So I asked him. He said he'd been thinking the same thing, because before the split he and I used to see each other a lot but he never spent any time at my house, now he and his boyfriend always seem to be at my apartment (which is a good thing). He said that he feels more comfortable there than he ever did in my house. Also, he never really liked Steve.
I had my housewarming/divorce party a couple of weeks ago. That was a lot of fun. And we had a ritual burning of photographs and keepsakes which was actually quite theraputic. Teddy bears burn surprisingly well...
So yes, I'm doing well and looking forward to the house being sold and the divorce finalising so that I can really put it behind me.
In other news, I have gotten into Dexter (have seen the first two seasons), have obsessively devoured How I Met Your Mother (I love that there's a sitcom that worships continuity, and actually displays story arcs and character development. Also it has Neil Patrick Harris, which automatically makes it worth watching) and I'm loving Dollhouse (I really have nothing to say in these parentheses other than JOSS!).
You'll be glad to hear that I'm in a much better place now than I was then. I'm settled in nicely to my new apartment, and I'm adjusting to living alone. Actually, the only thing I'm adjusting to is not having to let someone know what my plans are. I'm realising now just how much Steve wasn't a part of my life. Which is actually one of the saddest realisations about the whole thing, because I really did love him so much.
As far as Steve goes...I think I miss the idea of him more than Steve himself. I miss knowing that there's someone at home for me if I need them. But to be totally honest, he wasn't there as much as he should have been. He was physically in the house, but that was it. I wasn't getting hugs, I wasn't getting conversation, I wasn't getting support.
And I have some very good friends who are only an email or a phone call away, and quite frankly they support me more than he ever did.
Interestingly enough, there are a couple of friends who I see more now than I have in a long time. I'm fairly sure that one of them is only calling me more because he's worried about me, but I wasn't sure about the other one. So I asked him. He said he'd been thinking the same thing, because before the split he and I used to see each other a lot but he never spent any time at my house, now he and his boyfriend always seem to be at my apartment (which is a good thing). He said that he feels more comfortable there than he ever did in my house. Also, he never really liked Steve.
I had my housewarming/divorce party a couple of weeks ago. That was a lot of fun. And we had a ritual burning of photographs and keepsakes which was actually quite theraputic. Teddy bears burn surprisingly well...
So yes, I'm doing well and looking forward to the house being sold and the divorce finalising so that I can really put it behind me.
In other news, I have gotten into Dexter (have seen the first two seasons), have obsessively devoured How I Met Your Mother (I love that there's a sitcom that worships continuity, and actually displays story arcs and character development. Also it has Neil Patrick Harris, which automatically makes it worth watching) and I'm loving Dollhouse (I really have nothing to say in these parentheses other than JOSS!).