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Theres alot pulsating through my mind like a rush of wind hitting me in the face. Sometimes i don't expect it, but it's still there.
He say's it's all over and we can be back to our "normal" selves again but slowly i feel that my heart has perished and theres nothing of me left. I just want him to pick me back up and walk into the sunset like it's supposed to happen. Like in the movies.
Lately i have been hating myself, seeing the cruel demand i become in a matter of moments. I do something absurd and regret it soon after. I want control of my life again. I want things to happen like i wrote on paper when i was 8 writing about my dream guy in my lisa frank diary, and how many kids i have, the house with the white picked fence, the golden retriever. I just want contorl.
We all want what we can't have.
I guess it's a part of life..
I just haven't taken the time to relize that.
He say's it's all over and we can be back to our "normal" selves again but slowly i feel that my heart has perished and theres nothing of me left. I just want him to pick me back up and walk into the sunset like it's supposed to happen. Like in the movies.
Lately i have been hating myself, seeing the cruel demand i become in a matter of moments. I do something absurd and regret it soon after. I want control of my life again. I want things to happen like i wrote on paper when i was 8 writing about my dream guy in my lisa frank diary, and how many kids i have, the house with the white picked fence, the golden retriever. I just want contorl.
We all want what we can't have.
I guess it's a part of life..
I just haven't taken the time to relize that.