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Ahhhh!!!!!! I need human companionship. I need to talk to someone for i fear i will loose my sanity if i linger inside my own head much longer! still sick.... i require speak human talk. Je desire parler avec un copain! aidez-moi!
But seriously. Let's talk for awhile. i mean i haven't written a long entry in god knows how long.
These days my time is spent chatting with people on "Threads" and "Forums" on IMDB about new upcoming movies. But i just can't fucking take it any more. there comes a time when you just have to shoot yourself in the foot to take away the pain, you know?
Then i'll make some huge elaborate plan to do something that will never become more than just an idea or a thought.
And when i get to that state of total boredom and what a state it is... I'll watch TV or fuck around on YouTube.
I got no life. No drive... just guilt and boredom.
Well at least i'm not depressed.
than maybe i'll play a video game or subscribe to some online thing. But what's the point? I'm forbidden to spend money... I should really get a job. Fuck.
i should really throw myself off a cliff is what i should do.
But if i start contemplating suicide i sound like a prick.
...and i don't want to kill myself by the way.
so how do you shove drive and ambition into someone with nothing to do and no where to go?
you tell me, cause i'd really like to know.
I just need someone to give me a hug and say "You're cool, man."
Then i'd feel better.
-Eliott
But seriously. Let's talk for awhile. i mean i haven't written a long entry in god knows how long.
These days my time is spent chatting with people on "Threads" and "Forums" on IMDB about new upcoming movies. But i just can't fucking take it any more. there comes a time when you just have to shoot yourself in the foot to take away the pain, you know?
Then i'll make some huge elaborate plan to do something that will never become more than just an idea or a thought.
And when i get to that state of total boredom and what a state it is... I'll watch TV or fuck around on YouTube.
I got no life. No drive... just guilt and boredom.
Well at least i'm not depressed.
than maybe i'll play a video game or subscribe to some online thing. But what's the point? I'm forbidden to spend money... I should really get a job. Fuck.
i should really throw myself off a cliff is what i should do.
But if i start contemplating suicide i sound like a prick.
...and i don't want to kill myself by the way.
so how do you shove drive and ambition into someone with nothing to do and no where to go?
you tell me, cause i'd really like to know.
I just need someone to give me a hug and say "You're cool, man."
Then i'd feel better.
-Eliott