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About to board the second plane and I have never been more fucked up in my life: absolutely no sleep for the past two days, downupdownuppers, alcoholall day long, friend tears, some redneck's voice behind my head saying "...and then, as these kiyids begin to segrigate..."
I'm so fucked right now, I haven't even been able to properly communicate with myself, the only message my brain can absorb is that I am fucked up. Fucked the fuck up. Trying to remain functional, hauled heavy luggage throughout the city at an absurd hour in the morning...I can't tell if I'm wearing purple tights or if my legs have changed colors, don't wanna think about anything, don't wanna think about anything, don't wanna think about anything, people stop your talking, hands stop your shaking, is the bar open yet? can we fucking smoke in here? i see me, in the computer screen, a reflection, people, listen, stop your plans...stop it now!
I'm so fucked right now, I haven't even been able to properly communicate with myself, the only message my brain can absorb is that I am fucked up. Fucked the fuck up. Trying to remain functional, hauled heavy luggage throughout the city at an absurd hour in the morning...I can't tell if I'm wearing purple tights or if my legs have changed colors, don't wanna think about anything, don't wanna think about anything, don't wanna think about anything, people stop your talking, hands stop your shaking, is the bar open yet? can we fucking smoke in here? i see me, in the computer screen, a reflection, people, listen, stop your plans...stop it now!