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todayifoundaclosure
i should have known this a month ago but i guess it's still alright.
today, 7th feb 2011, i have finally found closure, almost sure, to one of my longest running saga..to you both, i thank you for being the most significant part of my life thus far..countless tears and aches i have born for you both. the former, a journey i will never forget til my last breath, the latter, a wait of uncertainty and mixed signals which once i thought we had a chance but i guess now it wasn't meant to be..
to the former,
i was rather surprised at your sudden facebook message..words can't describe how bittersweet i felt reading it. what took you so long to give me a reason as to why we can't even be friends anymore? i'm sorry too for all the pain i've put you through and it's been 2 years plus since you're with someone new..the last time i saw you was on my hospital bed, carassing your hair, and you left. that was the last i've seen of you..i just want to say thank you..i could never thank you enough for being part of my life for 3 years plus..all the happiness we shared and lessons learnt from each other will now be nothing but just memories..pleasant memories..
to the latter,
you were a journey that spanned all the way back in 1999. i liked you from the start. we had sth back in 2003 when something happened and i broke your trust..things never seemed to be the same again..i admit it was my mistake and tried to make amends when we had the chance again in 2006 but since then, you kept giving me mixed signals and led me on..i wished i'd had known earlier..i liked it when you were overseas because we chatted much better but distance grew everytime you came back home..i really wished things could have worked out between us but i guess you already have your heart set on another guy..liking/loving you for 12 years was no joke and i guess now that i've found the answer, it's time i pack up and continue down the long winding road..i guess i will get things straight in a letter to you before you leave for you convocation..i'd like this chapter to end before you graduate in your emerald robes and start a new chapter in life..
to both of you..i wish you all the best for you future and despite what has happened between us, i will still care and you will always have a special place in my heart.
thank you.
i should have known this a month ago but i guess it's still alright.
today, 7th feb 2011, i have finally found closure, almost sure, to one of my longest running saga..to you both, i thank you for being the most significant part of my life thus far..countless tears and aches i have born for you both. the former, a journey i will never forget til my last breath, the latter, a wait of uncertainty and mixed signals which once i thought we had a chance but i guess now it wasn't meant to be..
to the former,
i was rather surprised at your sudden facebook message..words can't describe how bittersweet i felt reading it. what took you so long to give me a reason as to why we can't even be friends anymore? i'm sorry too for all the pain i've put you through and it's been 2 years plus since you're with someone new..the last time i saw you was on my hospital bed, carassing your hair, and you left. that was the last i've seen of you..i just want to say thank you..i could never thank you enough for being part of my life for 3 years plus..all the happiness we shared and lessons learnt from each other will now be nothing but just memories..pleasant memories..
to the latter,
you were a journey that spanned all the way back in 1999. i liked you from the start. we had sth back in 2003 when something happened and i broke your trust..things never seemed to be the same again..i admit it was my mistake and tried to make amends when we had the chance again in 2006 but since then, you kept giving me mixed signals and led me on..i wished i'd had known earlier..i liked it when you were overseas because we chatted much better but distance grew everytime you came back home..i really wished things could have worked out between us but i guess you already have your heart set on another guy..liking/loving you for 12 years was no joke and i guess now that i've found the answer, it's time i pack up and continue down the long winding road..i guess i will get things straight in a letter to you before you leave for you convocation..i'd like this chapter to end before you graduate in your emerald robes and start a new chapter in life..
to both of you..i wish you all the best for you future and despite what has happened between us, i will still care and you will always have a special place in my heart.
thank you.