Lets try this again...
Ok.. so.. me and James were supposed to hang out last week.. last tuesday to be exact, and he was gunna call me at 10:30 when he woke up, well i never got a call and i was pissed.. so i went to the mall and spent money, he NEVER called me, showed up to my house, NOTHING.. i thought maybe he would call me from work since he had to work.. nope. i didnt even hear or see him until work wednesday night, i walk in and he looks at me and i walk right passed him, i gave him that look... they know when ur pissed. and he was like whats wrong, im like we need to talk serious tonight.. hes like ok.. so the whole time before we go on break hes like i love you, blah blah blah, are you gunna break up with me, blah blah blah, and see i had every intention of tellin him straight up right there im through with your shit im done. but i couldnt be that mean cuz he told me he would have to leave if i broke up with him cuz he wouldnt be able to work. so we go on break and were sitting there and I CANT SAY IT.. its like when hes around me i freeze up everytime..like i forget what im gunna say.. hes like come on so finally i spit it out that it really pisses me off when people say they are going to do something REPETITVLY and not do it.. that is the one thing i do not tolerate.. its happened to me my whole life and im not doing it anymore.. i dont need that shit, im not gunna wait around for the phone to ring or for someone to show up.. im done with the shit. this whole time hes just sitting there looking at me and his eyes are all red like hes about to cry. im like im not doing this anymore, hes like im sorry i wont make promises anymore, i was like if u really cared about me u would have at least found some kind of phone whether it be a cell or a payphone, anything just to let me know u werent comming so i didnt waste my time waiting for somthing that wasnt going to happen. he didnt have anything to say about that... now i dont think he would cheat on me... but i think there might be more going on with his ex Liz than he wants me to know about..i cant stand the fact that hes always with her and not me.. like he told me he would never get back with her, but whenever he has a problem he calls her... now i thought that a GIRLFRIEND was supposed to be there for her boyrfriend, not the ex girlfriend correct? i mean i understand that they have a child together and she needs to see him just as much as james.. but shit... he cant even have me over becuz she might stop by.. fuk it.. i dont need any of that... so i think we might be better off friends and if he gets time maybe we can hang out... who knows.. im just tired of all this DRAMA and shit.. why does every relationship i get into turn to shit? can i PLEASE find someone normal??
so i meet this guy Chris on hot or not, he lives in Land o Lakes. hes really cute and nice..were into a lot of the same stuff and same situations relationship wise...kewl people.. i think i might end up quitting my job.. i really need to get out of the greenroom.. were supposed to be getting a new manager and hes a complete DICK and hes rude... this isnt going to fly long... he wont have a night crew, we will all quit.. i aint even playin im so tired of that place, i hate going in, i dread it everyday i have to work, im soo looking forward to going on vacation just so i dont have to be in the hell hole anymore.. im going to get my oil changed thursday so we'll see if they give me any shit like last time. it should only take about 15 minutes.. i have the first spot open, so hopefully it will get done quicker this time. my birthday is in 6 days!! WHOO HOO.. i still have no clue what im doing, im off sunday mon and tue. im gunna end up going to the dentist on my birthday.. might as well get it over with right? hmm.. what else has happened...nothing else really..i need to go see raych, its been a while...i think me and Lee might go to the tanning bed on friday..hmm... other than that nothing else has really happened. so i guess i will end it there... talk at ya'll later!
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Shealynn