*SIIIIIGGGGGHHHHHH*
this is a song by the group Total, its old but its SO suiting my whole situation right now..
if your ever to leave me, how could i breathe
how could i even go on,if your not here beside me
then what good would my life be,this life wont mean a thing if your not around,and dont you that,if i lose you there be no joy to be found this world wont show a thing to me,
*oh i dont wanna smile,if your not smilng with me,
i dont wanna laugh,if your not there to share the
laughter with me i dont wanna live,with out you what kinda
life would that be,oh baby,no baby,i dont wanna smile if
your not smiling with me*
if theres ever a moment, when your not there,
sharing these momments with me,it will be such a sad song, it would all just be over the stars wont shine as bright if you walk away,there be no reason to wake up everyday this world wont mean a thing to me
*oh i dont wanna smile,if your not smiling with me,
i dont wanna laugh,if your not there to share the laughter
with me, i dont wanna live,without you what kinda life
would that be,oh baby,no baby,i dont wanna smile, if your
not smiling with me*
so back to my journal..
me and james are GREAT, i couldnt ask for a better boyfriend.. the other night i was going to find a parking spot in the employee parking lot and i just happened to find one next to him! so i wrote him a little note saying i hoped he had a good day and i would talk to him later, well when i went out to my car after work, it was on my windshield and he wrote back on it *thanks baby you too, i love you.* i was like OMG OMG OMG!!! it totally made my day.. he said sumthin about it to me the other day, about him finding it hard to not say that he loves me, meaning he wants to but thinks its too early or that i wouldnt feel the same way.. when in reality i do.. i love this man, i dont care what anyone else says, sometimes you just know, and i know.. this is so serious and unlike anything i have ever experienced before in my life, i feel so complete, and natural, im myself around him im extremly comfortable, like ive known him forever, i can be stupid around him and know he isnt going to think any less of me.. its just so perfect and i know im in love.. i asked him if he meant it, cuz i dont just want him saying it to make me happy or to get in my pants or whatever, not that hes like that, and he told me straight up that he wasnt going to say it unless he was absolutly sure, becuz he didnt want to fall in love to begin with, i guess i have that effect on people ;o) but im really excited that things are just taking off so smoothly, ive been waiting for this for a long time... im anxious to see where this all goes. well i guess thats it for now, so i will talk more later!!
**i love James**
Shea
if your ever to leave me, how could i breathe
how could i even go on,if your not here beside me
then what good would my life be,this life wont mean a thing if your not around,and dont you that,if i lose you there be no joy to be found this world wont show a thing to me,
*oh i dont wanna smile,if your not smilng with me,
i dont wanna laugh,if your not there to share the
laughter with me i dont wanna live,with out you what kinda
life would that be,oh baby,no baby,i dont wanna smile if
your not smiling with me*
if theres ever a moment, when your not there,
sharing these momments with me,it will be such a sad song, it would all just be over the stars wont shine as bright if you walk away,there be no reason to wake up everyday this world wont mean a thing to me
*oh i dont wanna smile,if your not smiling with me,
i dont wanna laugh,if your not there to share the laughter
with me, i dont wanna live,without you what kinda life
would that be,oh baby,no baby,i dont wanna smile, if your
not smiling with me*
so back to my journal..
me and james are GREAT, i couldnt ask for a better boyfriend.. the other night i was going to find a parking spot in the employee parking lot and i just happened to find one next to him! so i wrote him a little note saying i hoped he had a good day and i would talk to him later, well when i went out to my car after work, it was on my windshield and he wrote back on it *thanks baby you too, i love you.* i was like OMG OMG OMG!!! it totally made my day.. he said sumthin about it to me the other day, about him finding it hard to not say that he loves me, meaning he wants to but thinks its too early or that i wouldnt feel the same way.. when in reality i do.. i love this man, i dont care what anyone else says, sometimes you just know, and i know.. this is so serious and unlike anything i have ever experienced before in my life, i feel so complete, and natural, im myself around him im extremly comfortable, like ive known him forever, i can be stupid around him and know he isnt going to think any less of me.. its just so perfect and i know im in love.. i asked him if he meant it, cuz i dont just want him saying it to make me happy or to get in my pants or whatever, not that hes like that, and he told me straight up that he wasnt going to say it unless he was absolutly sure, becuz he didnt want to fall in love to begin with, i guess i have that effect on people ;o) but im really excited that things are just taking off so smoothly, ive been waiting for this for a long time... im anxious to see where this all goes. well i guess thats it for now, so i will talk more later!!
**i love James**
Shea