you dont know how lovely you are...
gouging expletives into anothers vehicle is a sign of trust and friendship.
i have to work tonight. then fred and i are probably going to rock down to electric avenue. atleast to see the show, i dont know about the afterparty and erin's party. i've got 1/4 gal of vodka left, so we could just finish that off. we'll see. if that's the case we'll give carri a holla and rock out trio-style.
i'm really happy that i got to see emilie on wednesday.
yawn.
anyways. old poems from past springs are priceless.
--stupid.--
Its sweet of you, it really is
to offer to bandage my open wounds
to promise to hide the gun from me
and open a window to let out the fumes
Its nice of you, it really is
to buy me new sheets to replace those stained ones
and i appreciate your concern
when you see me coming undone.
I want you to know I'll do the same
if my chance ever comes
but I dont know how to protect you from hate
and what causes you to go numb
I dont know how to unfreeze you
and I cant make you care
i dont know how to get through to you
and I cant fix that mortal tear
I cant take away your anger
and I cant take away the emptiness
i cant offer you comfort
i cant offer you bliss
I cant keep you from doing anything
and I cant stop your pain
cant take the darkness away
cant keep you from going insane
I cant make her love you
and I cant make you forget
i cant change the past
i havent learned how yet.
I dont know how to fix things
i once knew how to break
and I cant stop from thinking
that your feelings were completely fake
I cant make you love me back
i cant make you understand
i cant force you to care for me
those things I cant demand
I cant make your black replace your blue
and I wont try to give you hope
i cant kill you anymore
i cant try to help you cope.
I wont try to find a solution
i wont try to solve all this
i cant lose anything else
theres too much of it I already miss
I dont know how to bring you back
i dont know how to cry
i dont see why you do things
i guess I just dont understand why
I dont think im lucky
i dont wonder how
i havent thought about us lately
and I cant do it now
I cant make me pretty
and I cant have more depth
the only thing I can do
is reassure my death.
I wont go on forever
and neither will your pain
i wont try to block out the clouds
that bring on the rain
I cant make life worth living
and I cant quite fill your heart
i cant touch that place deep down
im afraid you'll fall apart
I dont want to lose you
but I cant make you stay
i dont want to let you go
but i'll let you have your way
I dont want to be forgotten
just a vague memory
but theres no doubt in my mind
that's all i'll ever be.
I can't pick and choose
when nothing else compares
it's like youre already six feet down
and i'm the only one who cares.
I cant do anything I did before
i cant put anything back together
i cant make you smile
maybe ill learn how, but it might take awhile.
I cant lie to you anymore
cant trip on my own tongue
cant get hung up on my emotions
this hearts already been strung
I cant use my golden aura
i'll have to give it back
i cant be sympathetic anymore
that action I seem to lack.
I cant mention your name anymore
i cant promise anything else
im going to give up
im disgusted with myself
I cant touch your face the same way
i cant take anymore of your strength
i wont burn you anymore
i wont go to that length.
I cant give back what I took
but i'll try as hard as I can
i cant drive you to the edge
im everything you cant stand.
--end--
times of wanting to die and getting my heart broken do not mesh well together.
yar.
fred just called. he's a good guy. +10.
i have to work tonight. then fred and i are probably going to rock down to electric avenue. atleast to see the show, i dont know about the afterparty and erin's party. i've got 1/4 gal of vodka left, so we could just finish that off. we'll see. if that's the case we'll give carri a holla and rock out trio-style.
i'm really happy that i got to see emilie on wednesday.
yawn.
anyways. old poems from past springs are priceless.
--stupid.--
Its sweet of you, it really is
to offer to bandage my open wounds
to promise to hide the gun from me
and open a window to let out the fumes
Its nice of you, it really is
to buy me new sheets to replace those stained ones
and i appreciate your concern
when you see me coming undone.
I want you to know I'll do the same
if my chance ever comes
but I dont know how to protect you from hate
and what causes you to go numb
I dont know how to unfreeze you
and I cant make you care
i dont know how to get through to you
and I cant fix that mortal tear
I cant take away your anger
and I cant take away the emptiness
i cant offer you comfort
i cant offer you bliss
I cant keep you from doing anything
and I cant stop your pain
cant take the darkness away
cant keep you from going insane
I cant make her love you
and I cant make you forget
i cant change the past
i havent learned how yet.
I dont know how to fix things
i once knew how to break
and I cant stop from thinking
that your feelings were completely fake
I cant make you love me back
i cant make you understand
i cant force you to care for me
those things I cant demand
I cant make your black replace your blue
and I wont try to give you hope
i cant kill you anymore
i cant try to help you cope.
I wont try to find a solution
i wont try to solve all this
i cant lose anything else
theres too much of it I already miss
I dont know how to bring you back
i dont know how to cry
i dont see why you do things
i guess I just dont understand why
I dont think im lucky
i dont wonder how
i havent thought about us lately
and I cant do it now
I cant make me pretty
and I cant have more depth
the only thing I can do
is reassure my death.
I wont go on forever
and neither will your pain
i wont try to block out the clouds
that bring on the rain
I cant make life worth living
and I cant quite fill your heart
i cant touch that place deep down
im afraid you'll fall apart
I dont want to lose you
but I cant make you stay
i dont want to let you go
but i'll let you have your way
I dont want to be forgotten
just a vague memory
but theres no doubt in my mind
that's all i'll ever be.
I can't pick and choose
when nothing else compares
it's like youre already six feet down
and i'm the only one who cares.
I cant do anything I did before
i cant put anything back together
i cant make you smile
maybe ill learn how, but it might take awhile.
I cant lie to you anymore
cant trip on my own tongue
cant get hung up on my emotions
this hearts already been strung
I cant use my golden aura
i'll have to give it back
i cant be sympathetic anymore
that action I seem to lack.
I cant mention your name anymore
i cant promise anything else
im going to give up
im disgusted with myself
I cant touch your face the same way
i cant take anymore of your strength
i wont burn you anymore
i wont go to that length.
I cant give back what I took
but i'll try as hard as I can
i cant drive you to the edge
im everything you cant stand.
--end--
times of wanting to die and getting my heart broken do not mesh well together.
yar.
fred just called. he's a good guy. +10.