ugh!!!
today... it sucked.... yesterday... it sucked... on friday i made a HUGE mistake... im sorry im not perfect... and i hate myself sooo freaking much... i lost bunches of friends... and most of all... i lost trust in myself and everyone around me lost trust in me... i know i made a mistake... and humans do make them... but as people have been saying i make 2 many... and your right... well right now i am making a list of what i need to change about me... and right now i think its everything!
like before this all happened... everything was going great for me... then i had to go F**k it up.... i am sooo pissed at myself...
so if everyone hates... im sorry for what i did... i made a mistake... and if you know what it feels like if you have made a bigger mistake then me... why the hell are you making it even more of a living hell for me?!?!
2 people particular that are major mad at me... they have made mistakes too.. and i know i hurt both of them... and i shouldnt have... and i am serisously super sorry what i did too you... but you guys know what it is like to make a mistake... and you should know how i feel... im sorry if i lost you as friends... but i totally wasnt thinking about my friends... but i sooo should have! and that was another mistake on my part...
i am sooo sorry to everyone that i hurt in everyway..
Dylan~ i am the most sorry to you... and i like i asked if there is anyway for me to make this up to you... i will do anything! i am soooooooo sorry! you probably wont ever be even my friend... and i made a mistake.. cuz you were a great friend and a great boy friend... and i shouldnt have done this to you... i was being really really stupid... and im sorry!
Sidney~ i wont talk to you because i am scared... like i told alex livey.. i get what i am going to talk to you in my head... like i had been thinking about what i was going to say for like an hour.. then i forget when i get within 5 feet from you... like that is how scared i am of you.. and i shouldnt have done this to you either... and you were like my best friend i told everything to! and i lost you... and i am mad at myself that over 1 mistake i lost you! and i am sooo sorry! i know we might not ever be friends again.. so thank you for everything this year... you were sooo much fun in ceramics... it was fun! and being a teacher aid.. and getting food from the teachers lounge.. oh i miss it sooo much... and i just hope you will have fun next year and the rest of this year! thanks for helping me with all the tough times i went through this year! it means a lot.
Kayla~ i dont know what to say.. everything you have said to me was true... all the shit i do isnt right... and ur right i did make a mistake that caused me to lose friends.. and i did lose you! and like i hate myself for that... kayla you are like the best person to be friends with! and i am mad that i ruined that! i am sorry! i know saying sorry doesnt really help... but what else can i do.. if i could go back and change everything i did.. i would! and i am really sorry! if there is anyway i can repay you... i will... i know we might not ever be friends again... so have fun in texas.. and next year! hope you have fun! and in language arts was sooo much fun! i loved when we were reading anne frank.. and the line you said was soo funny.... margot margot margot.... remember mister so-and-so, i'm a lady! lol... how you said it was soooo funny! i loved it! thanks for making more then half of my 8th grade year fun!
Baby you're all that i want
When you're lying here in my arms
Im finding it hard to believe
we're i heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isnt too hard to see
We're In Heaven
oh thinkin about our younger years
there was only you and me
we were young and wild and free
Now nothing can take you away from me
we've been down that road before
but thats over now
you keep me coming back for more
Baby you're all that i want
When you're lying here in my arms
Im finding it hard to believe
we're i heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isnt too hard to see
We're In Heaven
We're in heaven
Now nothing can change what you mean to me
there's a lot that i can say
but just hold me now
cuz our love will light the way
Baby you're all that i want
When you're lying here in my arms
Im finding it hard to believe
we're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isnt too hard to see
We're In Heaven
Now ourdreams are coming true
through the good times and the bad
i'll be standing there by you
we're in heaven
love is all that i need
And i fnd it there in your heart
it isnt to hard to see
we're i heaven
We're in heaven
thats to all my friends... and i sorry for what i did...
xo xo ShEa xo xo
like before this all happened... everything was going great for me... then i had to go F**k it up.... i am sooo pissed at myself...
so if everyone hates... im sorry for what i did... i made a mistake... and if you know what it feels like if you have made a bigger mistake then me... why the hell are you making it even more of a living hell for me?!?!
2 people particular that are major mad at me... they have made mistakes too.. and i know i hurt both of them... and i shouldnt have... and i am serisously super sorry what i did too you... but you guys know what it is like to make a mistake... and you should know how i feel... im sorry if i lost you as friends... but i totally wasnt thinking about my friends... but i sooo should have! and that was another mistake on my part...
i am sooo sorry to everyone that i hurt in everyway..
Dylan~ i am the most sorry to you... and i like i asked if there is anyway for me to make this up to you... i will do anything! i am soooooooo sorry! you probably wont ever be even my friend... and i made a mistake.. cuz you were a great friend and a great boy friend... and i shouldnt have done this to you... i was being really really stupid... and im sorry!
Sidney~ i wont talk to you because i am scared... like i told alex livey.. i get what i am going to talk to you in my head... like i had been thinking about what i was going to say for like an hour.. then i forget when i get within 5 feet from you... like that is how scared i am of you.. and i shouldnt have done this to you either... and you were like my best friend i told everything to! and i lost you... and i am mad at myself that over 1 mistake i lost you! and i am sooo sorry! i know we might not ever be friends again.. so thank you for everything this year... you were sooo much fun in ceramics... it was fun! and being a teacher aid.. and getting food from the teachers lounge.. oh i miss it sooo much... and i just hope you will have fun next year and the rest of this year! thanks for helping me with all the tough times i went through this year! it means a lot.
Kayla~ i dont know what to say.. everything you have said to me was true... all the shit i do isnt right... and ur right i did make a mistake that caused me to lose friends.. and i did lose you! and like i hate myself for that... kayla you are like the best person to be friends with! and i am mad that i ruined that! i am sorry! i know saying sorry doesnt really help... but what else can i do.. if i could go back and change everything i did.. i would! and i am really sorry! if there is anyway i can repay you... i will... i know we might not ever be friends again... so have fun in texas.. and next year! hope you have fun! and in language arts was sooo much fun! i loved when we were reading anne frank.. and the line you said was soo funny.... margot margot margot.... remember mister so-and-so, i'm a lady! lol... how you said it was soooo funny! i loved it! thanks for making more then half of my 8th grade year fun!
Baby you're all that i want
When you're lying here in my arms
Im finding it hard to believe
we're i heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isnt too hard to see
We're In Heaven
oh thinkin about our younger years
there was only you and me
we were young and wild and free
Now nothing can take you away from me
we've been down that road before
but thats over now
you keep me coming back for more
Baby you're all that i want
When you're lying here in my arms
Im finding it hard to believe
we're i heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isnt too hard to see
We're In Heaven
We're in heaven
Now nothing can change what you mean to me
there's a lot that i can say
but just hold me now
cuz our love will light the way
Baby you're all that i want
When you're lying here in my arms
Im finding it hard to believe
we're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isnt too hard to see
We're In Heaven
Now ourdreams are coming true
through the good times and the bad
i'll be standing there by you
we're in heaven
love is all that i need
And i fnd it there in your heart
it isnt to hard to see
we're i heaven
We're in heaven
thats to all my friends... and i sorry for what i did...
xo xo ShEa xo xo