Im stupid
I am addicted to this guy already. I want more sex with him and i also want to spend more time with him. he is the kind of guyi am looking for. We have many similiarities but our differences like he says compliment each other. I am so stupid because there is another girl that has been his "friend" for a lot longer but he does not want a relationship. I still want to have a good time with him but I don't trust myself. I don't want to fall for him but i already like him. I really want us to get to know each other better but i know that we will never happen. I have been trying to keep my jelousy down but the girl that likes him and is kinda with him is my friend. I have to hear about them all the time and i feel jelouse and mad but i don't care i still want to get mine too. I feel so fortunate being chosen by him because he is such a desired man. I really think we could have fun together but i don't know waht to do. I don't want to call too much because i don't want to seem like a stalker but i got to get more of him. I want to cuddle again and have a night like sunday night again. Grrr... I wish i wasn't like this and i am trying to subdue my feelings but i know how i feel. I guess i am just trying to hide them from everyone else. I didn't know if i should write about this because there is no one except for us that knows about it and thats the way we want to keep it. I kind of want to talk about it with him but I don't want him to freak out that I already feel this way. Thats pretty freaking soon. I think i will joke with him and tell him i don't trust myself with him and see where our conversation goes from there. Any advice for me?