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[she_will_kill]

i hate livejournal now
i still come to lurk once in a great while.

my life is getting ready to take off.
i'm excited and completely scared at the same time.
however, still no job opportunities,
but i'm not worried.

ever since i started taking Percocet, i've had such crazy and some-quite-awful dreams.
the first one was of my mother and stepfather trying everything in their power to kill me.
the next was of my father slinging grey paint in a nearby field to be able to track a tornado's path before it hit the area.... it then destroyed our house.
and the third was of my late grandmother, and her huge walk-in-closet, that turned into the ocean
and her telling me to go on ahead of her,
because the water was fine,
and crabs pinching my toes wouldn't hurt too bad.

thats hard to believe.
anyway,
there were more, but i dont remember them and you dont care.

i think all these dreams are saying something to me
even if its stuff i already know.
i know better.
to know thats all it is.
yes.

therapy is going good.
i'm walking, but still recovering.

i'll be happy and healthy again soon.
i can already feel you.
:)