2.40 cents.
i just got back from playing our factory show tonight with Yellowcard, Story of the Year and Acceptance. It was an amazing show and I was really proud of our performance. the club was packed and the vibe was excellent...i saw a good amount of people that actually knew the words to our songs. it was incredible. i distinctly remember the night we played with Yellowcard at Club Q and there was about 20 people there, and now less than 2 years later selling out the Factory.
being obsessed with music is a very turbulent vice. there are so many hardships that you have to endure before you see any type of payback. right now i have 2.40 cents to my name. i don't have a job. i don't go to school. my life revolves around my ability to play guitar and write music, and if that doesn't get me anywhere then i have n.o.t.h.i.n.g. i know, it sounds scary. scares the shit out of me daily, BUT i know that with anything you do in life, there is a constant struggle. you have to make sacrifices to succeed sometimes, and if i wasn't 100% convinced that I want music to be my life then i wouldnt be able to go to bed tonight with a smile on my face. i always expected this to be difficult, and i know there will be harder days than others...but i know its worth it. i know it. im confident in myself, and my bandmates. i want to be the band that went from playing in front of 10 people at Q to being a moderately big success. i guess its easy to live a life based on illusions of granduer, but without dreams there would be nothing to live for. right now im a conventional loser, but what matters to me most is that the people that i love are proud of me, and that im proud of me. i hope this is all just the beggining.
although nothing could really get me off the high that im still on from the show tonight...i went to the guestbook and saw something that irked me quite a bit. somebody had made this dumb post that said "robandmikerobandmike" 10000 times. it was seriously the longest post in the existence of our guestbook. i really don't understand. i think its great that people support rob and mike, because they were great guys. but i dont think that filling our guestbook with anti dklimb propaganda is a good way of going about it. we did what we had to do for them, and for us. i love those guys, and even though they don't talk to me and probably don't even like me...that won't change. i guess its something that every band goes through, and i think its pretty damn immature. im happy with the lineup and im glad we're working hard.
on non-band related stuff:
my lovely girlfriend Shelley suprised me with the incubus live @ lollapalooza CD, and i am extremely fortunate and non-deserving of it. <33 addict.
i have a best friend named rebecca and another one named kelly..both whom i completely adore and who had birthdays this past week.
i miss my sister and i can't wait to see her again.
i have no friends. nobody calls me nemore to hang out. i don't understand! call me people! i miss my friends!
newsflash: i'm ugly! somebody please get me a brown paper bag.
i'm tired, so i'm gonna head to sleep now.
being obsessed with music is a very turbulent vice. there are so many hardships that you have to endure before you see any type of payback. right now i have 2.40 cents to my name. i don't have a job. i don't go to school. my life revolves around my ability to play guitar and write music, and if that doesn't get me anywhere then i have n.o.t.h.i.n.g. i know, it sounds scary. scares the shit out of me daily, BUT i know that with anything you do in life, there is a constant struggle. you have to make sacrifices to succeed sometimes, and if i wasn't 100% convinced that I want music to be my life then i wouldnt be able to go to bed tonight with a smile on my face. i always expected this to be difficult, and i know there will be harder days than others...but i know its worth it. i know it. im confident in myself, and my bandmates. i want to be the band that went from playing in front of 10 people at Q to being a moderately big success. i guess its easy to live a life based on illusions of granduer, but without dreams there would be nothing to live for. right now im a conventional loser, but what matters to me most is that the people that i love are proud of me, and that im proud of me. i hope this is all just the beggining.
although nothing could really get me off the high that im still on from the show tonight...i went to the guestbook and saw something that irked me quite a bit. somebody had made this dumb post that said "robandmikerobandmike" 10000 times. it was seriously the longest post in the existence of our guestbook. i really don't understand. i think its great that people support rob and mike, because they were great guys. but i dont think that filling our guestbook with anti dklimb propaganda is a good way of going about it. we did what we had to do for them, and for us. i love those guys, and even though they don't talk to me and probably don't even like me...that won't change. i guess its something that every band goes through, and i think its pretty damn immature. im happy with the lineup and im glad we're working hard.
on non-band related stuff:
my lovely girlfriend Shelley suprised me with the incubus live @ lollapalooza CD, and i am extremely fortunate and non-deserving of it. <33 addict.
i have a best friend named rebecca and another one named kelly..both whom i completely adore and who had birthdays this past week.
i miss my sister and i can't wait to see her again.
i have no friends. nobody calls me nemore to hang out. i don't understand! call me people! i miss my friends!
newsflash: i'm ugly! somebody please get me a brown paper bag.
i'm tired, so i'm gonna head to sleep now.