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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! wont you just put a little more effort in? i feel like theres no way to talk to you about this and thats bad..i dont want to tell you these things cuz i feel like that will take away the magic from what it is. not just "that" issue, but i do little things, and i dont expect them back..but im getting a little dissapointed. i want to grow together thats whats so great about us, ive grown with your help and i've learned to speak up and i want to speak up about this and other things, but your temper prevents me from doing so. i dont want to ruin what we have, cuz its something i have never seen or heard of. you wont read this and no one will know what im speaking of but it feels good to put in words.nothing im feeling means i want to end this, i love you. unconditionally infact. but i need to get things straight.
i still feel like im going to explode one day, or run away. i need to try something new. i need to see something different. i need a break. maybe im over reacting. hopefully im pms'ing.
did you expect me to be happy when you called? i can see why you would expect me to forgive and forget again, with you i have always been a pushover but after not talking for this long besides when you called for another favor and when i objected cuz i was working at the time you hung up, havent thanked me or my family for all we have done..what do you want? i dont want anything more from you thats for sure.
i dont work tommorow and im hoping to have lots of fun tonight but so far besides the awesome messege i got from farrah today its been a dud and it looks like im going to end up calling it an early night.
i love farrah forever. no matter what anyone says, he can get over whatever it is that bothers him about her cuz she means alot to me, sure i have complained in the past, everyone needs to vent sometimes but that doesnt mean i have ever wanted to sever ties, i havent even complained in months and months, she hasnt done anything wrong, im not sure she ever has while he's been around. so fucking get over it and start seeing what i see in her. damnit.
i also wish people werent just lying when they say they can accept anyone not true,when i bring people over the usual feeling i get is tension, i feel as though i made a mistake and im tired of it, theres people i wouldnt want to hang out with by my choice, but if they come over i generally suck it up and try to be friendly. why dont more people have this quality?? ugh.
i cant stand the people who come in and order food at cafe 56. one day im going to wipe my ass with all the lettuce.
i still feel like im going to explode one day, or run away. i need to try something new. i need to see something different. i need a break. maybe im over reacting. hopefully im pms'ing.
did you expect me to be happy when you called? i can see why you would expect me to forgive and forget again, with you i have always been a pushover but after not talking for this long besides when you called for another favor and when i objected cuz i was working at the time you hung up, havent thanked me or my family for all we have done..what do you want? i dont want anything more from you thats for sure.
i dont work tommorow and im hoping to have lots of fun tonight but so far besides the awesome messege i got from farrah today its been a dud and it looks like im going to end up calling it an early night.
i love farrah forever. no matter what anyone says, he can get over whatever it is that bothers him about her cuz she means alot to me, sure i have complained in the past, everyone needs to vent sometimes but that doesnt mean i have ever wanted to sever ties, i havent even complained in months and months, she hasnt done anything wrong, im not sure she ever has while he's been around. so fucking get over it and start seeing what i see in her. damnit.
i also wish people werent just lying when they say they can accept anyone not true,when i bring people over the usual feeling i get is tension, i feel as though i made a mistake and im tired of it, theres people i wouldnt want to hang out with by my choice, but if they come over i generally suck it up and try to be friendly. why dont more people have this quality?? ugh.
i cant stand the people who come in and order food at cafe 56. one day im going to wipe my ass with all the lettuce.