ahhhh:-)
of course i knew everything would be alright in the back of my mind. and yes, it will.
i just get so frusterated and annoyed sometimes.
im in florida and its not bad. i am with alot of old people, which probably made me feel like i was wasting my time, and i think i should ignore that, i'll figure out what i wanna do when i figure it out, i promised myself not to try to live my life just like everyone else, or do something just cuz i feel pressure from society or family.
arthur and i will be best freinds no matter what. i know how i feel and thats that. if things dont work out in a relationship we will be freinds. not JUST freinds, cuz what we have isnt something you can cut down to ordinary-but just freinds-just amazing friends.
im still happy.
ive just been stressed, but i think today,maybe it was the nice breezy warm weather, the literally blue-not grey like cleveland-sky, the dip in the water, the hot tub, the abundance of beautiful wildlife everywhere i look, the relaxation...i think that im easing up a little, and i also think my head is clearing up alot im starting to think straight again, atleast i know how i feel now.
i love my freinds, i love my life. i still wanna know what this shit called love is tho.
(even tho i think i still got a pretty serious case of the stuff-you just cant describe it)
the entries i have been writing down here dont make much sense.
i just get so frusterated and annoyed sometimes.
im in florida and its not bad. i am with alot of old people, which probably made me feel like i was wasting my time, and i think i should ignore that, i'll figure out what i wanna do when i figure it out, i promised myself not to try to live my life just like everyone else, or do something just cuz i feel pressure from society or family.
arthur and i will be best freinds no matter what. i know how i feel and thats that. if things dont work out in a relationship we will be freinds. not JUST freinds, cuz what we have isnt something you can cut down to ordinary-but just freinds-just amazing friends.
im still happy.
ive just been stressed, but i think today,maybe it was the nice breezy warm weather, the literally blue-not grey like cleveland-sky, the dip in the water, the hot tub, the abundance of beautiful wildlife everywhere i look, the relaxation...i think that im easing up a little, and i also think my head is clearing up alot im starting to think straight again, atleast i know how i feel now.
i love my freinds, i love my life. i still wanna know what this shit called love is tho.
(even tho i think i still got a pretty serious case of the stuff-you just cant describe it)
the entries i have been writing down here dont make much sense.