Last Year to Date.
One year ago today, I found an entry in this livejournal I wrote: So far, I like to think I took my own advice.
MARCH 7th, 2005.
I think hoping for the best, is my best bet right now. And suprisingly, today was a good day. May I proceed to say, that I'm still not looking forward for days after this although I am willing to take the challenge to endure my strength.. I feel confidently strong and I think I have the my wonderful best friends( which I have the world to owe to them), homework-school, my journal, music, my piano, art, my camera, painting and the gym (so much more)to give my regards to as well. I live my life a little more different than yesterday but change isn't always bad. May it be that we learn from each experience and challenge. Each rise and fall, we always level up or down, depending on our perserverance of never giving up on a challenge. I like my trials though I don't like the process at times but in the end, I can say without shaking as much, that everything will be okay. Sacrifice comes out in hard work and trials we put ourselves through and we only get stronger than weaker, wiser than ignorant, content than confused. Before I had nothing to lose, but when you get what you want, that's when you got something to lose. Or in many cases, when you sacrifice to give up something you love, you forget you just built on your courage, strength, and even faith. When you're scared, it's your distrust of chances and fear that what you have or want isn't true. It takes big balls to do something like that. To take a risk, that chance, that supposed "big leap" of faith. Hell yeah, it's like jumping of a cliff at times and having no place to land.Your belief and hopes of having it turn out just the way its suppose to is courage, and faith combine and the trial of pulling all the way to the end is strength. But why expect so much? Giving the reason we are instilled with fear of lost and failure or actually being happy with what you have to fear that you won't have it anymore. No one should think so morbid and focus on that life is determined on the trials and tirbulations you manage yourself to experience and learn from. Life has a course it runs through, let it get lost on its own because it comes back to its path it was suppose to run on. Live a little,Learn a little while living, compared to eternity, this life is just a speck of a million. It's time to open up the eyes and see the world for what it is and not what I hope to be. Appreciate the little things in life and the people who live in it with you. I won't lie and say that I trust faith all the time. But I will say is I'm depending on faith to just take over while I sit back and keep having good days like this. Hoping I made an affect on that person's life as much as they did on me. It's late and I don't think I'm making too much sense. But I'm okay with this in my head it makes sense and with your time, I'm sure you haven't even reached this point. So we both live on, and we're both fine. Sorta. Let tomorrow be as good as today and days after.
PS. I still can't help to think that time has something personal against me and I still can't get enough of it
March 8th, 2006:
I realized it's the times of weakness, where roots of strength exceeds itself to find growth. I'm always up for challenges that's always creeping at me unsuspectingly. I started with a blank page once upon a time. You can't ever know what pain feels like without love. You don't know the significance of things until you have lost your securities. When I look at everything that's happened within the year,my internal emotional battles felt as if it would never leave me. The toss of feeling so used up and broken lead only for room to rebuild. About a year ago today, I sulked into my own depression and I manage to gain enough self-aggression to squirm (while kicking and screaming) to be where I said I would be today. I've gained so much from the experience of life challenges. I would've never settled to walk out empty handed anyways. You always have to find hapiness in yourself in order to start being with everyone else. I did just that. Life has many surprises. I've been a true survivor to notion that meaning.
Ps. New layout.
It's cute. So check it out :)
MARCH 7th, 2005.
I think hoping for the best, is my best bet right now. And suprisingly, today was a good day. May I proceed to say, that I'm still not looking forward for days after this although I am willing to take the challenge to endure my strength.. I feel confidently strong and I think I have the my wonderful best friends( which I have the world to owe to them), homework-school, my journal, music, my piano, art, my camera, painting and the gym (so much more)to give my regards to as well. I live my life a little more different than yesterday but change isn't always bad. May it be that we learn from each experience and challenge. Each rise and fall, we always level up or down, depending on our perserverance of never giving up on a challenge. I like my trials though I don't like the process at times but in the end, I can say without shaking as much, that everything will be okay. Sacrifice comes out in hard work and trials we put ourselves through and we only get stronger than weaker, wiser than ignorant, content than confused. Before I had nothing to lose, but when you get what you want, that's when you got something to lose. Or in many cases, when you sacrifice to give up something you love, you forget you just built on your courage, strength, and even faith. When you're scared, it's your distrust of chances and fear that what you have or want isn't true. It takes big balls to do something like that. To take a risk, that chance, that supposed "big leap" of faith. Hell yeah, it's like jumping of a cliff at times and having no place to land.Your belief and hopes of having it turn out just the way its suppose to is courage, and faith combine and the trial of pulling all the way to the end is strength. But why expect so much? Giving the reason we are instilled with fear of lost and failure or actually being happy with what you have to fear that you won't have it anymore. No one should think so morbid and focus on that life is determined on the trials and tirbulations you manage yourself to experience and learn from. Life has a course it runs through, let it get lost on its own because it comes back to its path it was suppose to run on. Live a little,Learn a little while living, compared to eternity, this life is just a speck of a million. It's time to open up the eyes and see the world for what it is and not what I hope to be. Appreciate the little things in life and the people who live in it with you. I won't lie and say that I trust faith all the time. But I will say is I'm depending on faith to just take over while I sit back and keep having good days like this. Hoping I made an affect on that person's life as much as they did on me. It's late and I don't think I'm making too much sense. But I'm okay with this in my head it makes sense and with your time, I'm sure you haven't even reached this point. So we both live on, and we're both fine. Sorta. Let tomorrow be as good as today and days after.
PS. I still can't help to think that time has something personal against me and I still can't get enough of it
March 8th, 2006:
I realized it's the times of weakness, where roots of strength exceeds itself to find growth. I'm always up for challenges that's always creeping at me unsuspectingly. I started with a blank page once upon a time. You can't ever know what pain feels like without love. You don't know the significance of things until you have lost your securities. When I look at everything that's happened within the year,my internal emotional battles felt as if it would never leave me. The toss of feeling so used up and broken lead only for room to rebuild. About a year ago today, I sulked into my own depression and I manage to gain enough self-aggression to squirm (while kicking and screaming) to be where I said I would be today. I've gained so much from the experience of life challenges. I would've never settled to walk out empty handed anyways. You always have to find hapiness in yourself in order to start being with everyone else. I did just that. Life has many surprises. I've been a true survivor to notion that meaning.
Ps. New layout.
It's cute. So check it out :)