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as of right now...
i am.... exhausted. i don't know why. i don't do shit. i'm fairly sure i will be failing my classes this semester. any of you reading this should know that i'm not exhaggerating. i don't know how to spell that word either. give me a break. uhm. what else.
liz is living with mallorie and someone else.
ashley is going to wilmington i think.
i love greensboro to death, but i mean. i've been assaulted twice. the 2nd was the fucking robbery. i'm paranoid to be ANYWHERE in greensboro after dark. constantly looking over my shoulder. i hate that. i'm probably safer and more aware than i'll ever be, now. i only feel that uncomfortable when i'm in greensboro.
all my friends are here. it's a tough choice. but honestly i'm considering going with ashley to wilmington, working for a while, then finishing school. it's what i really want to do.
i doubt my mom is going to support me in this in ANYWAY whatsoever, so i'm also preparing for that.
i'm just burnt out on everything. school. any form of relationships. i'm tired all the time. for NO reason. i have NO energy and i can't figure out if there's a reason why.
i don't talk to my dad anymore really. it sucks, but i mean. 18 fucking years of my life were wasted on me taking his bullshit. 18 years of my life were spent listening to him yell at me, being grounded, and threaten me with anything he could think of. then finally, when he leaves and moves to another state and is remarried he wants to be my dad again. i love him to death, i do. i have so much respect for him, but i can't get around that for some reason. i'm glad he's happy. that's all i need to know.
ah.
this was all very random and i'm sure it makes no sense whatsoever. but ok. so be it.
i am.... exhausted. i don't know why. i don't do shit. i'm fairly sure i will be failing my classes this semester. any of you reading this should know that i'm not exhaggerating. i don't know how to spell that word either. give me a break. uhm. what else.
liz is living with mallorie and someone else.
ashley is going to wilmington i think.
i love greensboro to death, but i mean. i've been assaulted twice. the 2nd was the fucking robbery. i'm paranoid to be ANYWHERE in greensboro after dark. constantly looking over my shoulder. i hate that. i'm probably safer and more aware than i'll ever be, now. i only feel that uncomfortable when i'm in greensboro.
all my friends are here. it's a tough choice. but honestly i'm considering going with ashley to wilmington, working for a while, then finishing school. it's what i really want to do.
i doubt my mom is going to support me in this in ANYWAY whatsoever, so i'm also preparing for that.
i'm just burnt out on everything. school. any form of relationships. i'm tired all the time. for NO reason. i have NO energy and i can't figure out if there's a reason why.
i don't talk to my dad anymore really. it sucks, but i mean. 18 fucking years of my life were wasted on me taking his bullshit. 18 years of my life were spent listening to him yell at me, being grounded, and threaten me with anything he could think of. then finally, when he leaves and moves to another state and is remarried he wants to be my dad again. i love him to death, i do. i have so much respect for him, but i can't get around that for some reason. i'm glad he's happy. that's all i need to know.
ah.
this was all very random and i'm sure it makes no sense whatsoever. but ok. so be it.